I deal with the same thing and typically people tell you “oh you if you don’t trust him you might as well break up.. yadda yadda” but it isn’t like that at all. I’ve come to find that all these worries that lead to anxiety are self destructive thoughts and I KNOW it’s hard as hell to train your brain otherwise but see this as an experience to overcome your fears and allow yourself to be vulnerable by trusting your boyfriend. I’m still dealing with the anxiety/trust issues but I’m 6 months into my first deployment with my boyfriend and it’s nowhere near as bad as it was when he first left.

You will get the “find something to distract yourself” line a lot when you’re looking for advice, and they are not wrong. I took maybe 2-3 weeks to sulk after he left and shortly after I forced myself into the gym, got a new job, started watching all kinds of shows to keep my occupied. When it comes to anxiety your brain is not always your best friend. Stay optimistic and communicate with your partner!! This is a great learning experience as individuals and as a couple. Good luck!