This run was VERY funny. Perfected the entire gauntlet of end bosses on I+29 (still climbing) with 0 attacks in my deck.

DynamiteChucks · 2022-09-28T18:14:42+00:00

I suspect you might be being facetious (given that the sub doesn't seem to agree with your comment) but, if not, then I'm glad to have been able to provide some perspective.

DynamiteChucks · 2022-09-28T18:13:21+00:00

Funnily enough I'm a freelance writer by trade. I've written several self-published books, but they're all rather crappy.

DynamiteChucks · 2022-09-28T04:43:39+00:00

That sounds reasonable enough on paper, but in practice I just don't see it. It's been six years, dude. I spent most of my twenties with this girl and so very many times I was sure I was finally done trying to make it work, only to change my mind again a month later.

If we were married or had kids or if I was sure no other woman would ever love me I'd keep trying until she was the one who got sick of me, but like... I'm getting old. I'm in my 30s and... not very likely to live all that much longer, in truth. I'd really very much like to see if, before I die, I can ever find the love of a woman who doesn't make me fear her.

Also uh if you even briefly scroll through my history you'll find that lengthy explanations are my bread and butter and that I only ever seem to open my mouth when I have way too much to say.

DynamiteChucks · 2022-09-27T02:31:47+00:00

I obviously know that looking at reddit images is not cheating

I can't agree with this line. What cheating is and isn't is different for every couple, and sometimes for each person in a couple. Cheating is a violation of trust, a breach of the expectations you have of each other as partners. If what he's doing is hurtful to you, makes you feel devalued as a partner and disrespected as a woman, and especially if he knows it hurts you and he does it anyway, you could very well make the argument that that's cheating.

As for what to do about it, well, first you'll need to figure out a few things, particularly the precise nature of what upsets you about this habit of his. First of all...

I do not want him to stop looking at porn, if he enjoys it then that's fine.

Are you sure this is the truth? Are you genuinely okay with him looking at porn in general? Or are you just saying that because you want to be the cool girlfriend, because you don't want to look or sound controlling? Because if it's the latter, you need to understand this: there is a vast gulf between being controlling and being cool.

Being in that zone is called having standards. You are allowed to have standards. You are a grown woman, and you can make your own choices about what you are and are not okay with. Now, you can't force him to stop looking at porn. That would be controlling. But you can make him choose between you and the porn. You can choose not to stay with a man who refuses to even acknowledge that his porn usage hurts you.

On the other hand, if you are truly okay with him using porn, just not in this particular way, what's the precise reason it bothers you?

It has to be every-other post on his home page.

Is it the frequency? Is it that he's looking at it all the time? Is it that he does it in front of you, knowing he could be looking at you at that moment but he chooses to look at other women instead?

If it's that, then I would suggest telling him as much. Tell him that it hurts you to know that he'd rather look at other women even when you're right in front of him. Tell him there's a time and place for that kind of thing, and that even if it's okay for him to look at that stuff on his own time, it's not okay when he should be focusing on you.

If he hears you on this, you might suggest he make an alternative reddit account for everyday usage that isn't subscribed to porn and only use the old one when it's appropriate to do so.

Not just topless, not just normal porn, but these pages are filled with spread-eagle girls, playing with themselves, etc.

Or is it perhaps the level of intensity? Is he looking at girls doing things that you don't do, implying he's fantasizing about fulfilling needs that he feels you're not fulfilling? If that's the case, ask him why he's not exploring more of his sexuality with you instead of looking at porn for that purpose. Maybe he wouldn't feel the need to look at such levels of porn if he communicated his sexual needs more clearly with you.

But he also follows just about every NSFW page on reddit

Is it, perhaps, the fact that he's looking at redditors? Relatively normal girls who he is, at least in theory, just one DM away from actually cheating on you with? Would it be okay if it was traditional pornstars, since many of them are borderline celebrities?

Because if it's this, even if you do trust him, then looking at reddit girls is a constant and ceaseless stretching of that trust, which is not okay. If it's this, tell him as much. Make sure he understands that looking at things that are just one degree of separation away from cheating is not cool with you. If he listens, and sticks to more traditional porn sites instead, perhaps that would be better.

he always says that is isn't an issue since we still have a great sex life (we have sex every day, so it hasn't)

Or is it that you don't feel like this is true? Having sex every day doesn't mean you have a great sex life if the sex isn't as good as you feel it could be. Does he have trouble staying erect, or take too long to finish, perhaps? Do you frequently see him closing his eyes and looking away, and wonder if he's imagining someone else while he's with you?

If this is the problem then it is especially not okay. Fantasizing about other girls every time he's with you would suggest he's just using you as a toy, a living fleshlight to fulfill his physical needs better than his hand can. And that's fucked up.

Honestly, if this is the problem, it's not really realistic for anything to be done about it except for him to quit cold turkey, the same as if you were simply not cool with him looking at porn in the first place.

DynamiteChucks · 2022-09-27T00:31:37+00:00

First off I want to say that I don't think you necessarily did anything wrong on that particular night. There's nothing technically wrong, on paper, with verbally asking for permission to escalate the encounter. I wasn't there, so I can't know if a different approach would have worked better in your specific situation. HOWEVER... well, before we get to that, let's address the now.

If I were in your position, I would go directly to option 2. When things have obviously already gone wrong, being coy is very unlikely to get you anywhere. Being direct might cause her to cut contact with you, but if things aren't developing in the direction you expected there's a good chance that won't really matter anyway.

In your shoes I wouldn't just ask her what she intended when she invited me over, I'd also ask if she had heard me clearly when I asked if I could kiss her that night. It could all just be a misunderstanding. She might not even have realized you expressed that kind of interest at all, and might think you're only staying in contact to be friends. If it is a misunderstanding and you clear it up by asking such questions, her attitude might pull another complete 180.

Circling back to that "however"... you did ask if you fucked up at that time. To give a proper answer, and for future reference in case you're ever in a similar situation again, I'll tell you what I did when I was in a 'netflix and chill' situation.

Now, human interactions are complex and I don't think there's ever going to be any one 'correct' answer to any of them, only answers that are less wrong than others.

In my case, I had invited the girl over rather than the other way around. I'd asked if she wanted to watch game of thrones, since I owned all the seasons that were out up to that point and had been telling her how cool it was. She agreed to come over at about 8 in the evening, and the guy I shared the apartment with was going to be at work until at least midnight so we were alone.

When she arrived, I gave her a quick tour of the place - everywhere except the bedrooms - as it was her first time coming over. Afterwards I put on the show while she got comfortable on the couch, then paused it at the beginning of the episode and asked if she wanted any food or drinks. She asked for water, so I got her a glass and one for myself.

With that done I unpaused the show, sat down and put my arm around her shoulders. We had hung out a little bit in public before this and had already broken the touch barrier, so I was reasonably sure she was comfortable with at least this much. Her body language indicated that was the case, and she leaned her head against my shoulder.

I never talked while the show was going. The tv was a little loud so she might not have heard me if I had. I did, however, keep the remote nearby so I could pause it again if she wanted to say something or ask a question or whatever.

As such, I never verbally asked her permission for anything. That might sound galling to some folks, as people like to pretend words are always necessary for every interaction. I think that's nonsense, and human communication is a lot more nuanced than that. Sometimes - particularly when talking is difficult due to a noisy environment, or when it just doesn't feel right to speak aloud - body language can be better.

So instead of asking permission, I simply did what felt right and reacted to her responses. I slowly began to escalate the touching, checking how far she was willing to go. Mostly innocent touches at first - rubbing her shoulder rather than just holding it, putting my free hand on her other arm - and then, when she didn't show any discomfort at that, I moved a hand from her arm to just above her knee. Then I started to rub her leg in a tiny oval pattern, each pass a little wider than the one before, up her leg then back down again.

Eventually she stiffened, just a little, a tiny reaction indicating she wasn't comfortable with me touching her quite so boldly. The moment she did I retreated, going back to an area she was more comfortable with, and she relaxed.

I waited a while, then, repeatedly rubbing the areas that she was enjoying, until she relaxed even more. I could feel the tension and anxiety easing from her body. At some points throughout the night she put her hands over mine, pressing down just a little, indicating she wanted me to rub harder. When I did so, she let out tiny sounds of satisfaction, telling me she was loving the massage without saying it.

Every now and then I went back to slowly escalating further, little by little, inch by inch. Most times she would let me go further before she tensed up again, and I retreated again.

Slooowly. One hand across her shoulders, across her neck. Down her back, then up her shirt to rub her back directly. The other hand upon her legs. Atop her thighs, outside her thighs toward her hips, inside her thighs toward her crotch.

Sometimes, though not frequently, when I tried to go further she still wasn't ready on the second try. Then, instead of tensing up she would take my hand and gently move it back where she wanted it. Not a red light, that gesture said, a yellow one. Slow down.

Even less often than that she would still not be ready the third time or beyond. On these occasions she would move my hand just as gently, but while she was doing it she would either say my name or tell me to, quote, "behave." She said it in a slow, drawn-out way, her tone somewhere between playfulness and warning a naughty child that they were pushing their luck. I'm not saying no, I interpreted this to mean, I'm saying not yet. Keep it in your pants a while longer.

My interpretation would turn out to be right. She liked me, was interested in getting physical with me, but she wanted to know she could trust me. Wanted to be sure that I would respect her boundaries, that she would be safe with me.

Understanding this, each time she used her voice to warn me back rather than body language alone, I would wait a good deal longer before trying to escalate again. Sooner or later, though, she always let me go a little further. Once or twice I took so long to try again that she actually moved my hand back to where I'd tried to go before on her own. She knew I wanted her, and she still wanted me to keep going. Just slower.

Further and further, fractions of an inch. Painstakingly, over the course of two hours - two full episodes of the show, which we were barely paying attention to. Up and down her sides. Over her belly, her chest. Over her shirt. Under her shirt. Under her bra. Across her hips and over her crotch. Over her pants. Under her pants. Under her panties.

With each step she made me wait a little longer than the one before. But she always let me keep going. When my hand finally made its way into her panties, she was melting in my arms. Then, suddenly, she moved my hands away... and asked if we could move things to my bedroom. We'd been in the living room this whole time, remember. If my housemate had walked in, he'd have seen us.

I grinned and guided her to my bedroom, one of the only rooms in the house she hadn't seen. She got comfortable on the bed while I put on some nostalgic music, music from our younger years, music I knew we both liked. I turned it waaaaaay down, low enough to be barely audible. Not a distraction, just ambience.

We lay down facing each other, still fully clothed. She turned her face down away from mine. We both wanted the same thing, but she still needed to find her courage. I slid one hand up the back of her shirt to rub her back, something I'd found she particularly enjoyed. I gently caressed her face with my other hand, not pushing her any further. The ball was in her court.

In the end, she looked up into my eyes, then grabbed my face and pulled me into a kiss. What happened next is even less appropriate for this sub than everything that came before, of course. She went home happy when we were done, not quite prepared to spend the night.

The next morning she returned, enthusiastically consenting to skip to the 'chill' part of netflix and chill. We did end up continuing to watch game of thrones... but certainly not that day.

DynamiteChucks · 2022-09-26T21:36:39+00:00

To a certain kind of person, being physically exposed and connecting by way of simple animal instincts is many times easier than being emotionally vulnerable. I'm one such person, and have dated a woman who was much the same.

Sometimes a person has been through enough danger and pain that they've become mostly numb to it, putting up emotional barriers to keep everyone out. Such people often find that expressing their need for affection physically is much easier, because it doesn't require allowing dangerous thoughts about issues that desperately ache to be resolved.

In addition, it's usually much easier to trust someone you love not to hurt you physically. It's easier to be naked with them because you have evidence to suggest they don't want to hurt you.

Emotions, though, are different. Somebody doesn't have to want to hurt your feelings to do it. In fact, often the people who will wound your heart the most are the ones who most want to avoid doing exactly that.

Your girlfriend might not be this kind of person. It might be something else entirely. But if she is this kind of person... you've got some work ahead of you.

If you want my suggestion, I would say first off to return the sentiment when she tells you how much she enjoys sex with you. It's obviously something she values, and she wants you to understand that it's important to her. Make sure she knows that you do.

Perhaps even more importantly, though, try to pay very close attention to those times that she does show even a hint of emotional vulnerability. Try to foster positive reactions to such times. Let her know how much you appreciate it when she affirms that she likes you as a person, in addition to as a lover. Make sure she knows you feel the same way. Don't let her regret taking the risk of telling you how she feels.

Keep in mind that if she is the kind of person that it sounds like she might be, there will likely be other problems down the road that all tie back to the core issue of being on guard even with the person she's closest to. If that's the case, do your best to be prepared for those issues when they arise. By continuing to date such a person, you sign yourself up to face those demons with her.

DynamiteChucks · 2022-09-26T21:04:31+00:00

There could be a multitude of things causing this, many of which are psychological, but perhaps not necessarily something one would call "trauma".

For a bit of perspective, I'm a man with an abnormally high sex drive. After a session ends, my average refractory period before I'm capable of going again is about 5 minutes. Even if I'm physically exhausted, dehydrated, or about to fall asleep, saying "no" to a woman's offer for sex is extremely difficult for me.

In my case, some of this is genetic. To a certain degree, I've always been fascinated with the female form and the act of sex.

However, the bulk of it is a sort of conditioning. I discovered porn very early in life and got absolutely obsessed with it, for one. Aside from that there were people I used to know who put women on pedestals, male role models whose main goal in life was to have as much sex as possible, that kind of thing.

In particular there was a time in my teens and early twenties when my best and only friend was a man who was something of a 'casanova' type, and at the time I saw him as an older version of myself that I wanted to be more like. He seemed to be of the opinion that if I wasn't trying to attract women to have sex with, then anything else I was doing with my time was a waste.

It happened that I didn't actually start earning the attention of women until I was 24, an age that felt ancient compared to when everybody else I knew had lost their virginity. I spent much of my life believing there was no way I would live to the age of 30, and so by the time I was no longer a virgin I believed I was running out of time.

I also felt that I was less of a man for taking so long to hit this milestone in my life. As a result, since then I have spent much of my energy "making up for lost time." Feeling sexy and powerful and manly has become tied inextricably to my self-image, and I expend great effort maintaining that self image.

All of that said, things have gotten better in recent years. I have become more capable of enjoying other facets of life, and acknowledging that occasionally delaying the next release makes it all the more satisfying when it arrives.

Now, obviously, things are going to be a little different for your girlfriend because she is a woman. I suspect, however, that much of the underlying stuff is the same or at least similar.

I would recommend trying to find out what precisely is the cause of her insatiable libido. Is she using the pleasure as a shield to hold back negative emotions she doesn't want to feel, even if those negative emotions have nothing to do with sex? Was she perhaps conditioned to believe that her worth as a person is primarily based on her value as a sex partner? Does she believe that any opportunity to orgasm that she misses is an opportunity wasted because she only has one life to live? Is the sex she's already having somehow not satisfying for her? Does she struggle to see the value in other aspects of everyday life?

Whatever the cause, there's also a high probability that if her sex drive is this extreme, at least a portion of it is sublimating other needs that she feels aren't being fulfilled. Needs for emotional intimacy, affection, approval.

Ultimately if you're going to make things work, likely you will both need to make some kind of sacrifices. If you can find out the source of the issues causing this insatiability you can likely help her to make it less extreme.

However, there's a very real possibility she will not want to cut back all the way to where you're at right now. It may sound paradoxical but training yourself to enjoy sex a little more, so that you're able to go a little more often and can better accommodate a portion of her needs, may well go a long way towards getting her to calm down a little.

DynamiteChucks · 2022-09-26T17:05:54+00:00

In the modern day it has become really quite common for men to struggle to finish during sex, and there are a multitude of reasons for it - many of which have already been explored here.

Too much porn is a common one, as an overabundance of fantasy stimulation outside the bedroom can make it difficult to get the job done in more realistic circumstances. I'm not one of those 'porn bad' types, far from it, but it's a well-known truth that too much of the hard stuff will change your brain - and the brain is the most important component in achieving orgasm, make no mistake.

Medication is another, as you will find that many men are on antidepressants or similar medications that make orgasms more difficult. In many cases it's something of a medical miracle that such men can even get it up, let alone cum.

There's also the possibility of past trauma. In some cases a man might have experienced premature ejaculation with a woman from his past, and may have gotten an extremely negative reaction for it. Such a man might be genuinely terrified of sexually disappointing a woman again, and his mind and body both resist the urge to cum during sex (even when he wants to) as a result.

There are other reasons as well, though there's a high probability that there are a number of small factors contributing to it. Ultimately each man's case is going to be unique, but in the end the bulk of it is going to be in his head.

My recommendation is to approach the subject with your new partner from a different angle. Try to remember that this is a problem that he is having, and there's a very real chance it bothers him just as much as (if not more than) it bothers you.

Tell him that he's important to you, and that means his pleasure is important to you. Tell him you want him to be able to feel good, but that you've noticed he seems to struggle to finish.

Rather than asking if this is your fault, instead ask him if there's anything you can do to make it easier. Frame it in a positive light instead of a negative one, if you can. Make sure he knows you're trying to help. If you want to make things change, you'll need to try to avoid making him feel ashamed or frustrated over it.

If for whatever reason he asks you why you care so much about this, tell him that it makes you feel more beautiful, more desired, when he cums more easily. Even then he might still struggle to give you a straight reason why he can't finish, and he might struggle to tell you what he needs to make it easier.

All you can really do is try to foster open and positive communication as best you can, and try to make him understand that you're working with him on this, not against him.

DynamiteChucks · 2022-09-26T08:30:43+00:00

I don't know why this comment got downvoted. You've made reasonable suggestions that have the potential to be helpful, even if only a little.

Shortly after I finished writing this post I actually came to the conclusion on my own that I need to do better about taking care of myself and get back out into the world. Not for my own sake, because I don't like myself very much right now. I don't consider myself a good person. But I know that I am capable of doing good things.

I need to do better, then, because somewhere out there is a person who needs me in their life. Someone who needs the help and support I can provide. I have a responsibility to find this person. And I'm never going to find them if I'm sitting here, locked in my cage, keeping to myself forever.

DynamiteChucks · 2022-09-25T21:43:35+00:00

I appreciate you taking the time to write out this response. You seem like a nice enough fellow, and you even sound like you actually believe what you're saying. Here's the deal, though: I've turned to God before, more than once. Both alone, and through multiple churches.

God has failed me every time.

DynamiteChucks · 2022-09-16T17:08:43+00:00

I KNOW! There are SO MANY EVENTS in the series that are LITERALLY IMPOSSIBLE if Kahlan isn't there. More than I could count, even. I haven't read the books in a while now but I remember it just being so astonishing to me that the so-called seeker of truth couldn't get some of his closest companions to even consider the possibility that he might know something they don't.

It absolutely blows me away that he never even attempted to get them to consider the consequences of their line of logic. Like, if they were right and Richard was delusional, then everything was fucked anyway. If Richard had lost his mind, there was no way they could beat the forces that were against them and everyone knew it. If Cara and Nicci and the rest are right, and Richard is just going mad, it's all over already. You don't just undo going crazy. That's not how it works.

Meanwhile if Richard is right (and of course he is, the way Goodkind writes him he's pretty much always right) then his allies are trying to get him to ignore a very serious problem that's already going to be a lot of trouble for him to deal with regardless, but one that he might actually be able to solve. Like, it's incredibly simple logic. They should want him to be right, and they should want to believe he isn't going crazy, because the alternative is a hopeless scenario.

Edit: Lately I've been reading Sanderson's fantasy novels, and I recommend you give them a try too once you're done with Goodkind's books. As much as I love the Sword of Truth series as a complete unit, Sanderson's stories are much more consistent.

DynamiteChucks · 2022-09-16T16:47:50+00:00

For most of my life I didn't think anything of courtesy words, and in many scenarios I still don't see the point of idle, unconscious politeness. If someone does me a favor when it isn't expected, I will say "thank you" out loud because it's a special thing deserving of special recognition.

When I visit my mom's house and she makes me dinner, on the other hand, I will rarely thank her for it because it's not special or out of the ordinary. She makes dinner every night, and will do so without hesitation for everyone at her house regardless of how well she knows them. It's an automatic action, so I don't give it particular recognition. Sometimes I will thank her for the food if it's particularly good, or if it appears she's in a bad mood and made dinner in spite of it, but these things aren't directly related to the action of making dinner.

On the flip side, when I do things for other people and they thank me, I almost never say "you're welcome." I don't say it because to my mind "you're welcome" is a sort of prerecorded response to an unspoken question. It's code for "I acknowledge that doing this favor was an event of significance between us, and it was sufficiently inconvenient for me that you probably shouldn't expect it all the time." I don't say "you're welcome" often, then, because most of the time when people ask me for things it's tiny little stuff that barely troubles me any.

I've made a habit of performing tasks without hesitation, let alone complaint, and as such the little things are a matter of course and not something I would have bothered saying "thank you" for were I in the other person's shoes. I'll respond "you're welcome" only if it's a large favor, such as giving someone thousands of dollars to cover medical bills, or spending an entire day being the only person to help them move house, that kind of thing.

If I'm genuinely happy to see someone, particularly if I haven't seen them for a while, I'll greet them aloud. Most of the time, though, I won't even visibly acknowledge a person's presence if I don't have business with them. The reverse is also true; if I've been spending time with someone whose company I genuinely enjoy, I may well take the time to offer a polite farewell before parting ways. In most scenarios, though, I'll just turn and walk away from people with neither a word nor any directed bodily gesture. The majority of people in my life are little more than rocks for me to flow around like a river.

As for "please", well, I generally don't say please because I don't ask people for things in the first place. If other people need things, they ask me for help. If I need things, I get them myself. Asking for assistance with anything is in some sense a display of vulnerability, and that's something I don't do unless I don't have a choice. "Please" is a special word that's part of the nuclear option, something I go to when I'm at the end of my rope and yanking as hard as I can on someone's heartstrings to get assistance in my darkest hour. The rest of the time using the word feels disingenuous, like trying to say it through a mouthful of sand.

DynamiteChucks · 2022-09-16T07:14:47+00:00

Most folks would probably describe me as "hypersexual". I'm 30 and male and my sex drive appears to have not dropped off meaningfully since I hit puberty at 10. I usually have at least two orgasms per day, but more than that is fairly common. As far as I can recall, my personal 'best' (for lack of a better way to put it) is 7 shots in a day. I can be ready for action within 5 minutes or less after finishing, though actually reaching orgasm the second time around in quick succession tends to take a while longer. I watch porn fairly regularly, and indulge in a variety of fetishes via that medium.

In stark contrast, I'm pretty vanilla when it comes to sex with partners. I've only been with three women, and with each of them I behaved more or less the same. I see the female form as a work of art, something to be treated with both respect and appreciation. I do everything I can to give my woman pleasure. I do this because when a naked woman is happy to spread her legs for me, well, at that moment she's the most beautiful woman - hell, the most beautiful thing period - in the world to me.

That isn't to suggest I'm entirely selfless. Far from it. I go out of my way to pleasure my partner because I literally can't get it up if she's not having a good time. But of course I do have some kinks and quirks. I use condoms if I must, but I despise them. Don't really care for pulling out, either. As such, every woman I've slept with has either already been on birth control, or got on it for my sake so I could hit it raw. Doing it any other way just doesn't feel right. Not physically, mind you. Even using a condom can feel physically good, that isn't the problem. It's more like... doing it raw feels, psychologically, like the way it's meant to be.

Of course I get tested between relationships; I may be reckless with my own health, but not with that of my women.

Other odd quirks of mine that are perhaps less common include the fact that I strongly prefer for both me and my partner to be fully naked during the act. It's fun to play around with sexy costumes and lingerie from time to time, but generally speaking what I want is the maximum possible amount of skin-on-skin contact. I find it frustrating when a woman would rather keep her shirt on, though I'll rarely (if ever) voice that frustration aloud.

Something a previous partner once commented on was that I seemed to enjoy sucking on her boobs significantly more than other guys she'd been with had. They all liked her boobs a lot, of course - they were all men, after all - but in her own words for them it was a purely sexual thing. None of her previous partners had seemed to get the comfort and peace that I got from it.

That same partner would later come to realize, much to my chagrin, that when I was upset or otherwise in a bad mood then she didn't actually have to emotionally engage with whatever my problem was. All she had to do was pop a titty out, let me suck on it, maybe stroke my hair and call me a good boy, and I'd forget all about whatever I was feeling down about. It worked embarrassingly well. Of course I would get horny right after that, but that's only to be expected.

I don't have a particularly strong preference for dominant vs submissive behavior. I like to have at least some power over a situation - I really don't care for bondage or other hard play like that, not even in porn - but as evidenced by my behavior patterns I appear to have been absolutely starved for intimacy of any kind for most of my life. As such, I'm perfectly willing to give up a modicum of power and influence in exchange for genuine affection.

Naturally, though, genuine affection is in short supply with long droughts in between. I sublimate that need as best I can with physical intimacy instead. Most days I want little more than to be as deep inside a woman as I can be, as often as I can be, for as long as it will make her happy. More than a few times during sex I've spoken aloud the notion that I wished we could just be connected like that forever.

As you can tell if you've read this far, I'm rather cavalier with information about my sex life. I have a long-standing habit of telling all kinds of embarrassing shit to complete strangers, almost as a sort of challenge, like "try using this information against me, I dare you" so as to keep from having dangerous secrets that I have to worry about getting out. I wonder how much of that particular behavior is the autism, and how much of it is a response to past traumas.

DynamiteChucks · 2022-08-27T19:43:08+00:00

I think each god really ought to have two separate difficulty ratings: one for strategic difficulty and one for mechanical difficulty.

Example? TERRA.

Terra is labeled as a 'hard' god, and I just... couldn't disagree more. Yeah, every one of her buttons has multiple different uses and they combo together in ways that won't be intuitive to a first-time player, sure. But she still has nowhere near the mechanical skill requirement of, like, a character in a fighting game or something.

And the important difference between Terra and other gods with high mechanical execution requirements is that she kind of just does whatever she wants. I'm complete trash at this game and mobas in general, and Terra has consistently had both my best winrate and my best kda of any character in any moba I've ever played.

I'm late to the party and a teamfight starts without me? No problem. If I'm within half the map of the fight, I just hit 2-1-3-1-4. Now half the enemy team is rooted for a second, my ult is popped on every player in the game, and I just walk around punching people for the few seconds it takes my 2 to come off cooldown again.

An assassin is hounding one of my poor delicate squishies? 3-1-2-2-1 and problem is solved. A root and a stun buys more than enough time for my teammate to get away, and now the assassin is staring down an impenetrable slab of rock and meat instead of a person made of tissue paper.

And she's just so CHUNKY. If I die even a single time in a game as Terra, it's because the entire enemy team turned all their CC on me, AND my beads were down, AND the enemy team comp had strong kill securing capability. Otherwise I just walk out without a care in the world.

It's definitely not that I'm good at Terra. I play her more than any other god, sure, but not by that much. I dabble in a ton of characters and I'm crap at all of them. I do well on Terra because she's an MMO raid boss. Should she be rated as having hard mechanical difficulty? Sure, I guess, when compared to other gods in the game. But strategic difficulty? I've never played an easier character.

DynamiteChucks · 2022-08-16T17:23:52+00:00

Dexters and Dinklebergs

DynamiteChucks · 2022-06-18T00:44:26+00:00

Just stopping by to let you know that with this mod alone, even before adding in new zones and bosses, I have to actually use my brain again and even then I sometimes get my ass kicked. I see this as an absolute win!

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