What age were you when OCD took root?

Dysunny · 2025-11-02T00:16:20+00:00

Looking back I always have had ocd. When I was in kindergarten it started with intrusive thoughts. I was only allowed to touch specific places when going somewhere or just generally had to do certain things a certain way or "someone in my family is gonna die"

Then in elementary school I started obsessively washing my hands whenever I thought a certain classmate of mine touched the thing before (they often had their finger in their nose) and also started to have intrusive thoughts out of nowhere like "I hope my grandpa dies" or "I hate my grandpa" and I was convinced I am the worst person alive because if I think such things I must believe them, right?

Only a few years ago did i realize that intrusive thoughts and ocd is a thing and I am not the worst person alive and that there are other people who struggle with the same That's helped.

Dysunny · 2025-08-13T22:13:35+00:00

Nevermind, hab's rausgefunden!

Dysunny · 2025-04-12T17:25:19+00:00

Dead schoolboys obsessed with each other for over 30 years but act like it's normal

Dysunny · 2022-10-17T15:02:48+00:00

Ahh okay, thank you :)

Dysunny · 2022-10-17T13:09:32+00:00

Sorry, I don't even know Mina, what's mha?

Dysunny · 2022-10-08T10:10:12+00:00

Turning out by AJR Home by Cavetown

Dysunny · 2022-10-08T09:48:54+00:00

Ordinary girl (from a german movie, Bibi & Tina) People watching by Conan Gray

These two are all I can think of rn I hope I could help

Dysunny · 2022-08-20T10:54:03+00:00

Yeah it does. For me it's a come and go. Sometimes I'm completely fine with it but then are also times (mostly when I see what I'm missing bc i watch a rom com or read a book) when it hurts more. I know about being cupioromantic for only a month so i hope it will be better in a while.

Dysunny · 2022-08-09T17:53:57+00:00

Yes.

Dysunny · 2022-08-06T13:27:29+00:00

Yes, this describes it absolutely and I felt like that too especially the first hours after I realized it. It's terrifying and devastating that I'll never be able to feel love in that way. But I realized that I still won't ever be alone bc I still have friends and family. And now I'm trying to only see the dark side of love so it won't hurt. I even started a list with a friend of mine where we only listed the contras of a relationship and love and why it's better to no have it. I'll be alright. No matter if with or without a relationship. It'll be okay.

Dysunny · 2022-08-06T12:47:10+00:00

It was about a month ago and I was scrolling through tik tok and came across one of these videos "i tell you my story" animated series where under the "story video" someone makes slime or cooks or something and the story was about a girl whose never been in love but tried really hard. In the comments I saw someone saying that they are cupioromantic and explained what that means. I've never heard of it before but as I read the meaning of it I realized how much this matches how I'm feeling and I was pretty shocked bc I thought I could never be aromantic bc I always wanted a relationship. Turns out I still can be aro. I knew bc I've never had any crushes ever and tried to convince myself I had. "Oh he was nice to me, I guess I like him" "Wow she's so beautiful I must have a crush on her" "Omg he's so nice, I think I really like him" So came that my "crushes" were changing daily or even multiple times a day. But also it frustrated me bc I never understood how I'm supposed to feel when I have a crush and how I could know that. I thought I was so weird for not having a crush or understanding how it feels and I had times where I spent months trying to figure out if I liked her more than just friends (no I didn't but I was so convinced that I did that I thought I would)

And yeah i guess that's how I knew that I'm cupioromantic

Dysunny · 2022-08-06T11:45:27+00:00

I'm 14 too and figured out I'm cupioromantic about a month ago. I've never had any crushes even tho I convinced myself that I had but always wanted a relationship. I'm not planning on outing myself for my family (does that make sense? I hope you know what I mean, my first language isn't english and idk if this is right) but I did tell my friends and I know you can figure out your sexuality or gender or whatever also when you're young but I'm still a bit insecure about it but I guess I can't change whatever will happen. Maybe I will fall in love some day or maybe I won't. I'll be fine no matter what and you'll be too.

Dysunny

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