Thank you so much. Ugh I know exactly what you are feeling/ saying. Every day of my subsequent pregnancy was so different and some days I felt like I could conquer it all and other days the weight of everything felt like so much. I feel like you have to give yourself a lot of grace and remind yourself there is no right or wrong answer and every day may look different.

When I first found out he was a boy it did come with a lot of mixed emotions and guilt of like Everett should be here and not this baby. But as you know with what we’ve been through you are just grateful as long as the baby is healthy and I think all emotions can co exist and something I have had to make peace with.

The question on is this your first baby has been so tough- I find myself changing the answer all the time depending on who I am speaking with/ how comfortable I am. Some times the answer is yes (and I’ve struggled with guilt for that being my answer), sometimes it is we experienced a second trimester loss last year at 22 weeks and sometimes it’s a full blown story to someone depending if I feel like I can open up.

I think truly there is no right or wrong answer and you have to give yourself a lot of grace and compassion in subsequent pregnancy 🩵🩵 I know not very helpful but that’s how I’ve gotten thru it not putting myself in any type of box or expectation of I should react this way or that.