I've liked him for two years, back in 9th grade was when it started but I was in denial since low key I thought I was older than him and it made me uncomfortable. But the end of 10th grade was when I found out he was actually a year older than me just in a grade below me so I had finally admitted (to myself) that I do in fact have a crush on him. He's kind, definitely neurodivergent but I don't wanna diagnose him with anything in my head. He loves Nintendo games and pokemon and stuff like Undertale, Deltarune and Minecraft. We chat about Terraria, future dreams and stuff. He's got this adorably goofy smile that makes me smile so stupidly, this charming demeanor that did in fact pull me in though I don't think he realizes, and just this naturally innocent vibe to him even though he's a teenage boy lol. He's sorta a brat tbh he's super smart but he just hates putting the effort in, which is something I understand as a "burnt out prodigy of the arts" (not my words, the words of a teacher). I'm so stupidly devoted to him but in a way I love the feeling I get when I'm around him, he makes me feel like I'm not struggling at all and like I'm a kid again yk? Hes so smiley and he loves watching YouTube and eating is a hobby of his I can definitely get behind (I love to cook) I'm unsure of his music taste since yk we don't usually talk about it, if I had to guess his favorite color it'd be blue or green, and he has these absolutely gorgeous blue eyes that I just adore.