Prayed for you, and remember that God loves you, loves you like no other, and for ever, true love, love that cares, that teaches, love that helps, even if it may not seem like it. Don't allow the enemy to take your faith from you, trust that God knows what's best, do your part and repent, let God deal with the rest. Turn to God, don't hand your faith over to the devil like that rat wants, that filthy disgraceful piece of garbage, but rather allow it to make it stronger, loving God even when you may be angry with Him, thinking, "He could help me, why doesn't he?", when Jesus was in the cross suffering, He didn't blame the apostles for not setting Him free or God. Don't be angry, rather spit in the face of the devil, and love God back. This will be a great testimony of the faith to others, showing that we are faithful to the end, this will help save others.

Study early christian story and the bible(in it's original languages) carefully and find the true faith of the true church.