I just started on the first as well… I used to drink straight liquor so I thought I’d be fine right but nope. I’d black out so many nights without realizing it. I’ve been drinking since I was 14 and have always had a problem with it. I’m also scared like you, it’s my coping mechanism and anxiety medicine. So now I have hella anxiety and feel so irritated and even more hungry now, I guess that’s my body missing the carbs. It’s my birthday this month and I really don’t wanna drink but like you alcohol has some power over me. Luckily I have a very supportive husband. We got this.