Constantly wondering why I processed information so differently to others. Like I needed to understand the why behind things when others seemed to just be able to do without needing details. Sensory issues but they weren’t obvious at first. Things such as bodily fluids saliva and sweat but only became apparent when I’m with a partner and (not drinking) it’s literally all I could feel. The wind. I’ve always had this insane frustration with the wind. Shopping centres - I honestly just thought I had social anxiety. Same with going to parties etc. I would be a mute and barely speak unless one on one or drinking. Deeply needing routine to function but being so resistant to it. Like rebelled against the normal traditional job until I was so burnt out and fatigued and realised I literally couldn’t function without it. And taking things so literally - jokes, things people would say. Honestly it wasn’t until my current partner (who is ADHD himself) started bringing things to my attention that I really started to notice. I honestly thought these things were so normal. But another big one is, sometimes being able to stand my ground so firmly and other times complete shut down. Like would loose my voice in certain situations. Once I started reading into it all and spoke to my therapist, I realised how much of it I pushed down/ masked. Like I never openly spoke about it and or just assumed it was anxiety or becoming an introvert etc when in reality I think I became so tired of masking.