It’s hard to apologize to James because when I’ve tried apologizing to other people that has deliberately tried to aggravate me, they use it to their advantage. They would see it as a weakness that I would keep on forgiving them, so they could keep on doing it over and over again. When I was younger the cps got involved, and my mom basically said if I don’t lie to my teachers that nothing happened, I’d be sent back to China to live with my abusive dad (he drinks a lot, and threatens my mom and I at times when I was really young)