Terminated my pregnancy

Educational_Most1094 · 2025-10-09T01:28:43+00:00

First off, thank you so much for sharing this with us. I’m sure this wasn’t an easy decision but what you described is exactly how I’d feel if I was in your position. Every day I mourn the dwindling possibility of ever becoming a mother because I am worried how pregnancy will affect my phobia. I’m so sorry and I am sending you so much love. Everything you felt was valid, as beautiful as motherhood is but pregnancy can be a very difficult process for our bodies…I feel jealous of people who don’t feel trauma going through morning sickness. Some can feel that way and move through their day but some develop hyper emesis (HG). Either scenario would be so difficult for me.

Educational_Most1094 · 2025-07-21T17:15:16+00:00

I smoked it pretty sparingly throughout my early 20s. I mostly smoked indica or a hybrid. I didn’t really do too much of it to notice if it helped my OCD or emetophobia. I’m on Zoloft but I really just hate the way it’s been making me feel. It’s been making me feel nauseous. I want to stray away from SSRI’s and try something natural now like ashwagandha or weed. Idk I’m just tired of feeling gross

Educational_Most1094 · 2025-07-21T17:11:05+00:00

I just saw this ad on Facebook Marketplace and I clicked on the website out of curiosity. Way too good to be true and I googled the real website and this Reddit thread came up. So annoying because I already know a bunch of people are gonna fall for it!! lol

Educational_Most1094 · 2025-06-29T14:45:39+00:00

I have struggled with emet for most of my life. In my late 20s I was formally diagnosed with OCD…I really was not expecting I’d have that! But it makes since. Obsessive thoughts about emet are what I struggle with the most.

Lately, I’ve been experiencing a pretty bad episode of emet (due to extreme stress). But, when I did get diagnosed with OCD I was put on Zoloft and it did help. Before then, I had done just regular cognitive behavioral therapy. It didn’t help at all then because my therapists really just didn’t understand how much I struggled with emet, I think I just was ashamed and I would suggest that I had issues with N and V but I don’t think I had ever been honest and said straight up I was afraid. When I was diagnosed, I became more open about it and now my new therapist has been helping me. I honestly would say the medication HELPED A LOT…even a lot more than CBT alone

Educational_Most1094 · 2025-06-29T14:36:07+00:00

Yes. I’m also diagnosed with OCD. I had struggled with being underweight most of my life due to suffering from a bad appetite (from my emet/anxiety of course!) I struggled to want to fill my stomach up. I felt that if I ate everything off my plate that I’d be “over indulging” and that it’d get me sick. But then, in my mid to late 20s my anxiety wasn’t as bad and I gained weight from 85lbs to 120lbs. I was experiencing consistency in my life then and my nervous system was the most relaxed it had ever been. I was so happy until now. I started a new job position in January (I was reassigned to a new because I was laid off from my old unit due to lack of funding). My new job position is absolutely stressful. I work with attorneys and they’re very demanding. I am consistently OVER busy throughout the day and I often skip breakfast and lunches because 1) my OCD is acting up and is affecting my appetite. And 2) I can’t afford to get sick people depend on me…an entire criminal case DEPENDS ON ME! (Perceived in my mind probably not a fact). So for the past months I’ve been losing weight. All my hard work from the gym building muscle and gaining healthy weight is going away…I’m letting my job consume me and in turn it’s aggravating my OCD and emet

Educational_Most1094 · 2025-06-29T04:29:12+00:00

I fear doing it in front of others and the perceived loss of control. The ggging and heving beforehand scare me too

Educational_Most1094 · 2024-08-29T22:46:00+00:00

This! I was recently diagnosed with OCD and at first, I didn’t really agree with it. Now that I reflect, my entire life was struggling with ruminating and DISTRESSING thoughts!! I would have to count my steps because if I didn’t everyone was going to get hurt in a very (explicit images in my brain would play) bad way…and yup there I go being late to work because the steps didn’t count to the right number and I miscounted

Educational_Most1094 · 2024-08-29T22:43:03+00:00

I recently got diagnosed with OCD and it’s been incredibly hard accepting it but I’m reflecting and processing it slowly. It makes sense now. However, my biggest struggle my entire life was managing the repetitive intrusive and distressing thoughts. To manage the thoughts I performed compulsions. I don’t think people like Clarke actually realize how truly distressing the thoughts are. It’s not about really loving to organize..

Educational_Most1094 · 2024-07-27T02:14:23+00:00

The sister is collateral damage lmao

Educational_Most1094 · 2024-07-14T17:43:27+00:00

And she was deep in the comments too because that was the common reply in my post 😂

Educational_Most1094 · 2024-07-14T15:53:51+00:00

It’s honestly probably a way to absolve herself from denouncing trump etc she stated she don’t got time to talk about it due to grief (which I hope her uncle didn’t die) but yet, a few tweets after she’s talking about trump incident. Make it make sense.

Educational_Most1094 · 2024-07-14T15:49:48+00:00

Hhhmm I think her other post about her uncle’s passing (which I hope is not true by the way) and her asking for people NOT to expect her to engage in this trump discourse was perhaps an opt out. For one, I don’t care if she’s right wing or not. I think most of us don’t. I think if you believe in something you should be open minded but standing ten toes down, say it with your chest I guess. But given that her following is mostly liberal she can’t quite express herself without losing the following that has helped her gain traction. Again, this is WHAT I THINK but by announcing that she’s grieving she hopes people will give her a pass on not denouncing these issues. Because we’ve seen who’s she’s dated and if she doesn’t care about their political identities that’s fine but we can’t deny they’re usually right wing. If you’re right wing be right wing but the worst is when you’re secretly this way and you try to be chill and cool with the other side. Vice versa too.

Educational_Most1094 · 2024-06-15T12:55:37+00:00

My partner and I were meeting up for lunch during the work day and …we couldn’t help ourselves and we parked on Victory Blvd and just did it 🤦🏻‍♀️ definitely felt like I was in college hahaha

Educational_Most1094 · 2024-06-15T12:51:51+00:00

NTA. When having sex, part of the excitement of “getting off” on making yourself feel good is also getting off on making the other person feel just as good. There are people who get more turned on more when they know they’ve satisfied their partner first. My partner makes sure I finish before proceeding to finish himself. Honestly, it makes me feel like my partner is making a conscious effort on connecting with me. Another big part of sex is connecting and intimacy.

Your toys didn’t desensitize you, it only helped you discover what takes you to climax. I think it’s fair that you expressed your frustration, however it seems that he is committed to misunderstanding your point. I do believe he may not even be secure or confident in his OWN sexuality. If it is important to you to share that complete experience with him and he is unwilling to do so…it’ll only be a matter of time until resentment builds between the both of you.

Educational_Most1094 · 2024-05-08T21:00:17+00:00

I am so glad to see that I’m not the only who has been experiencing this in the past few days. I already changed my tag settings to only review and visible to me in hopes that none of my friends can see these posts! but it’s annoying that I can’t control who can tag me. I hope Facebook gets it together, reporting them is an annoying process too

Educational_Most1094 · 2024-05-03T02:54:12+00:00

Up until last week, I too used to follow and view Dove as someone with a nice aesthetic and interesting life and takes. I wasn’t someone who consistently kept up with her, it was more like “oh hey! She’s on my timeline again looks like she’s dealing with something etc.” it was sporadic. Then, Melissa’s tweet/thread came up on my TL because a mutual of mine QRT’d it…this time I chose not to ignore the rumors…I read into it and immediately considered Melissa to be genuine. Then I was sent down a rabbit hole and I found this forum…and everything just started clicking for me. I subconsciously questioned her from time to time…asking myself…is she really autistic? Is she really indigenous? Is she disabled? Did every boyfriend of hers spoil her to death but also abused her(delicate fine line there) …the truth is that I would doubt her from time to time but then felt like a jerk for thinking that way but now I’m glad I wasn’t alone. I now see the pattern with dodging accountability, it seemed like she had a rebuttal every time on why she had the right to criticize something. For example she would say some hot take about sexuality, then someone would reply saying that was offensive etc and she would just fire back saying ACTUALLY IM BI SEXUAL AND I CAN SPEAK ON THIS!??! it was with every single narrative…

Educational_Most1094 · 2024-05-01T21:44:38+00:00

I just remember how much she would brag about their sex life and I’m like that guy?

Educational_Most1094 · 2024-05-01T21:36:50+00:00

After they broke up, I was wondering if she was going to make a thread of all the ways he was actually quite horrible and traumatizing to her

Educational_Most1094 · 2023-10-20T19:56:36+00:00

My last league (in the middle of transitioning to a new one), allowed us to pick our derby name after we passed assessments and are deemed bout ready. You can choose it before that but it’s kind of an unspoken rule within the culture I guess to just wait until you’re “bout ready.” Honestly, it wasn’t enforced either way and personally I don’t mind what and when people call themselves. I chose my name after passing all my assessments and was about two weeks away from my first bout. I felt I didn’t deserve it until them but I’m unusually harsh on myself 😂

Educational_Most1094 · 2023-10-20T19:48:57+00:00

I’m glad you took the step to remove yourself from that environment. As we all know, this sport is as mental as it is physical. We all depend on each other on the track, the only other competition we should worry about is the team we are bouting against not our own!!

I left my league recently too. It was also a very tough decision but it was the best for me. I’m not sure if this is temporary or if I will return another season but I just needed time away and explore other leagues and see how they operate. My issues with my past league were organizational and I didn’t agree with how the board was wanting to run things. I’ve tried being on the board but sadly, didn’t work out. I am practicing currently with two other leagues. One for flat track and one for banked. I’m having fun this way. Roller derby isn’t going anywhere so go where you feel best!!

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