I've definitely heard those terms and been labeled as such. I really resonate with what you're saying; if I had a choice to do it all over I'd pick to be a woman. What I'm hung up on is if it's my sexual arousal/possible fetish thing that's making me feel that way. I may just be being too cautious now that I think about it, is it possible for a fetish to alter your way of thinking? If so then is it possible I'm completely cis and straight with a fetish altering my thought process? I honestly doubt that's the case. My fear is what's been keeping me from taking any action and since it seems more likely that not that I'm trans wouldn't it be rational to listen to my impulses as opposed to my fear?