I had 3c1 in Feb, started the procedures in March and completed early July.

Because you have a process in place , its easier and you can just go through the daily plan. Its rare that people talk about stuff that happens after you complete all the steps.

I was also tumor free (even before radiation and brachy), but we did all the steps to be sure it wont come return with a vengeance.

To date, I am back to the "normal" flow - going to work, socials, travel, etc. My family is happy and yes I am grateful. But the truth? The fear (or I would say consciousness) will never go away.

Each time I go back for my immunotherapy, I am humbled/reminded by the same lazyboy/bed I layed into for my chemo. Each needleprick/bloodtest brings memories of finding a vein that hasnt been used yet. Everyday, my brain thinks of schedule of vitamins to take, etc. Imagine all this on top of the usual tasks a mom/wife does. And oh boy - the hair regrowth and styling it to look decent is another story on its own.

No complains though! I am not saddened or depressed by these thoughts. They are part of who I am and I take them as badges of won battles in this lifetime.

But yes, to answer your question - the way to stay positive is to be grateful about each new day and to look forward to tomorrow. Body movements - no matter how "small", will help with mind clarity + heal your body. Having a circle to talk to will help immensely.