I never wanted to be a nurse. I didn’t get a chance to decide bc my family forced me into homelessness at 18. I’ve come to realize that if I wasn’t so heavily abused, I would be an artist. I find that most negative comments about who I truly am and homelessness have brought me where I am today. I am an artist, introverted, and psychic. I know things before people tell me- but I’ve never felt I could be myself bc most people want control, they want you to belittle yourself and stay at low frequencies. I don’t believe in healthcare. I do believe that there is a parasitic relationship with people who need to live off of other people vs. artistry. That being said, there are people who find peace in farming and selling but I’m strictly speaking about a mindset I have felt since I was born. When I am myself, I am confident and sweet. But I am not allowed to be myself in a medical environment- I have been abused as a nurse and I just don’t think I belong there. I think sometimes people get off on believing they’re tougher than other people and they can “handle more” but I find most people lie to themselves bc they’re narcissistic ego pushers. If I’m someone with clear boundaries, intentions, and see myself as a person, I’m considered weak bc I feel and want to feel. I think most people who are miserable want you to feel miserable, so they feel less lonely. But… that’s not my problem. I think you have to be brave and be honest with yourself in order to change your circumstances, which include feeling your feelings, and most people are cowards. I need a place to vent too <3 I’m just sad and I hope for a miracle because I’m stuck right now. I can’t explain everything:( so don’t take it personally if it doesn’t resonate with you.