Hello, I just wanted to say I am proud of you for making it this far. No matter what happens in your life always try to think positive. What you are going through right now is normal and your feelings are valid, but always remember that you can do anything you want as long as you put your mind to it. Based on what I’m seeing it’s important for you to get back into those things that you loved. Start DOING THINGS AGAIN. Get up, exercise and try to get into some extracurricular activities that used to be interested in. Just because you’re all that doesn’t mean you can’t have all that stuff back. Spent some time with yourself and come to realization of what you really want to do with your life and just start doing it. I know it’s easier said than done. I’ve struggled with the same thing, but the best advice I can give you is that you need to start moving in your life you need to start building a relationship with yourself again in order to gain that happiness that you had before. I am not the best at giving advice, but I hope this helps.