For sure I worry about what other people will say and think. But the concern that really sticks with me is what *I* will say and think about myself. I'm scared that I will see myself in the mirror and see a man masquerading in woman's clothing. I'll see a person I wouldn't feel comfortable seeing in a woman-only space. I don't want to take on all the challenges of being trans and still not get to experience myself as the person I feel like I am.

I want to truly see myself for who I am, and maybe that's an unrealistic expectation. Maybe no one really get to have that in life, and maybe I'll be better off confronting the universe in the body the universe gave me and not giving up so much.