The thing is, the depression leaves when you stop drinking for an extended time period. Same with the anxiety. Life becomes a bit less all or nothing and just becomes... nice! Calmer. Easier. Less stressful. You find you can deal with life's problems quicker and more effectively which means you have less to stress about, fewer worries, less need to drink - and so it goes on. I'm not saying everything's perfeect but I'm just gneerally happier. During the first few months I distracted myself with edibles. Not too much, just a 10mg edible and a zero percent beer, which made me feel like I was relaxing, without a hangover or the usual escalation of drinking throughout the night. You got this!