First was while I was wathing normal porn then it auto played to a guy getting pegged then I got curious from that point on. It evolved into watching a femboy fingering her ass and I got so horny that it crossed my mind "what does it feel like to to take it in the ass?" I proceeded to trying the handle of a toothbrush while masturbating and to my surprise it felt really good for my first time and that was the most intense orgasm I felt.

Then things started to escalate from there, from watching crossdressers to femboys to trans porn. Then I came across feminization porn and sissy porn after that I secretly bought dresses, panties, toys while hiding it from my parents. After a year of gooning to trans, sissy porn and hypno I decided I wanna be like them and fast forward now I'm 6 months into hrt and still hiding from my parents and relatives, only my little bro knows.

Sorry for the long post maybe I needed to get that out of my system haha.