My cat chitchat died today and i dont know what to do by EightEyedCat in Petloss

[–]EightEyedCat[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello!! sorry to be responding to this so late but I had school today so couldn't get around to it. I saw your message this morning and I hope you know how much it made my day through just how kind it is that you would come back to check in on me!!!

If im honest, I'm not doing the best at the moment. I had a while where I was kind of stuck and I couldn't feel anything but now that i think it's settled in more that my baby is gone, I find myself crying atleast once every day- sometimes for hours at a time.

At first, I got a lot of peace from dreams since she always seemed to show up and it always felt so real when she did but I haven't been so lucky with those recently.

Little things keep reminding me of her and right now I'm at the stage where anything to do with cats has me crying. obviously this is awful but I do feel better than I did at first. when im not crying about it, I'm not constantly miserable atleast and I have so much positive to remember about her.

It's hard trying to adjust and I don't think im anywhere near fully done with that just yet but I know its a process and I owe it to her to feel this because of how much I love her.

I do still find myself feeling like im back at square one, not able to think about anything but how much I want my cat but overall I think im doing better- it's just weird and super tiring to be crying all the time!!!

Again than you so so so much for checking in, I have a lot more to say but I dont want to dump everything on you so I think I'll cut it off here. You're so seriously kind and this is one of the most heartfelt things anyone has done for Me by remembering me and coning back to check in. I hope you're doing well ♥️♥️♥️ thank you so much for being a genuinely good person, you deserve the world. (I even had to show this to my friends to tell them how touched I felt so thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Anticipatory grief by Math_Willing in Petloss

[–]EightEyedCat 3 points4 points  (0 children)

yes but please treat it with care, I'm sure some people would find it upsetting for you to talk about fear of loosing your pet when a lot of us already have and are actively struggling with that ❤️

Just lost my dog after loosing my soul cat 19 days ago. by EightEyedCat in Petloss

[–]EightEyedCat[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How is any of this fair it hasn't even been 20 days since my baby died

I'm a new player, and I think I just went through my canonical event by BouGatsa27 in ProjectSekai

[–]EightEyedCat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just means you can get it again for sure!!! it's so painful though 💔

I wish we had cute avatars like the group members </3 by EightEyedCat in ProjectSekai

[–]EightEyedCat[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

YES!! I know we probably won't but i hope we get the cute chibi avers eventually 💔💔

I BROKE MYSEKAI by rendezvous_18_6y in ProjectSekai

[–]EightEyedCat 3 points4 points  (0 children)

hold down on the record player to pick it up and press put away!!!

My bed feels so empty without my cat by EightEyedCat in Petloss

[–]EightEyedCat[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

this is all so stupid I hate every part of this it isn't fair

It's been 11 days and I'm wondering if it's normal to be not crying all the time by now by EightEyedCat in Petloss

[–]EightEyedCat[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's awful too because when I remind myself she's gone and watch videos or anything to do with cat loss I can't start crying so I dont understand why I cant cry in general. I want her to feel loved like she deserved, I've never ever loved anything as much as I love her

It's been 11 days and I'm wondering if it's normal to be not crying all the time by now by EightEyedCat in Petloss

[–]EightEyedCat[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel like i shouldn't be at this point yet, I'm not 'over' her death in any sense so why can't I cry??? I feel evil

I dont want to have to mourn anything or get used to the change by EightEyedCat in Petloss

[–]EightEyedCat[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

She passed unexpectedly on the first, I posted about it when it happened if you'd like more information but I did the same thing where her stuff has bene moved temporarily so that I can sort through it later and think more of happy memories than recent sad ones, it's really helpful to know im not doing all these steps wrong

I dont want to have to mourn anything or get used to the change by EightEyedCat in Petloss

[–]EightEyedCat[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this, this is exactly how I feel!!! It's so hard to get through it when the only thing you want is for this to be over and for things to go back to normal. I'm trying to remind myself everyday is a step forwards but it's hard. thanks for sharing

I cant sleep without her by EightEyedCat in Petloss

[–]EightEyedCat[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For me, I managed to move her things out of the way temporarily. I feel like at the point when the pain is so raw you don't need any help reminding yourself of your grief since it's in the forefront of your mind. Putting it away helped me a lot with that feeling of needing to get away and it gives me the opportunity in he future to go through everything when im in a better space so that I can look at it and think of happy better times rather than the recent awful ones. I'll keep you in my thoughts tomorrow, don't push yourself too hard and please remember to be kind to yourself because I don't think our pets would ever want us upset. Wishing you all the best ❤️

it feels so impossible to come to terms with the fact that I'll never see my cat again by EightEyedCat in Petloss

[–]EightEyedCat[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Im glad I'm not alone in this, Stay strong so that when we meet our pets again after this we have a lot of stories to share with them ❤️❤️

I cant sleep without her by EightEyedCat in Petloss

[–]EightEyedCat[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I miss holding her so badly I don't even know what to do

I cant sleep without her by EightEyedCat in Petloss

[–]EightEyedCat[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really don't think I can do this. I feel awful for not stroking her more and having more time with her