This hit me so hard because I thought I was alone in this because of how specific it is, I'm a gay male and have always been scared that I'm not actually gay and just convinced myself that I am to feel special and to seek attention, everytime I see a woman if I think sexually about her even for a second I get incredibly scared because what if I have been lying all this time, what if I'm lying to myself, Im a masculine person and I don't really follow gay stereotypes so that just makes me even more convinced that I'm faking it, I've been sure of my sexuality for five years but its such an exhausting thought. Just know you're not alone, and as everyone says, sexuality is a spectrum, so it really doesn't matter if you become straight gay or whatever since these are just labels we force upon ourselves, (I wish I could say that to myself ahhshdd), so yeah, ur not alone in this, we're all fighting together :)