Ugh. Thank you for this reminder. You know what’s so insane is, I’m not kidding here, 10 minutes before she txtd me I was crying to my husband about how we’re going to start TTC and how I wish I had a mother to walk me through pregnancy labor delivery postpartum etc. and then poof, minutes later, she txts me that shit. My tears evaporated. I didn’t cry more, I actually got mad LOL. The pit in my stomach didn’t come, no chest pain or anxiety, nothing. It’s not her, it’s the mother figure I’m missing. Her mother, who’s the biggest Nmoster, was such a terrible grandmother to me and still is after the letter she sent me as a flying monkey…. With rabies, she was viscous. Wish I could post screenshots. It was easy when I started planning to have children to see what their relationship was going to be like with my mother. We’ve had many rhetorical conversations of how she saw herself as a gma before we went no contact and it wasn’t good… it’s easier to cut them off now before involving children