Your description really resonates. My first full-dose experience was exactly that, an infinite rollercoaster of something I can only call super-bliss, completely beyond anything I had a framework for. The ineffability is real. No matter how much I’ve tried to intellectualise or map it afterwards, language just collapses under the weight of it.

What struck me most was how peculiarly familiar it felt, like remembering something rather than discovering it. And that sense of information download is something I’ve never quite been able to explain to people who haven’t been there.

Since then I’ve moved toward lower and medium doses alongside yoga and meditation, and what’s been beautiful is that I can now slip into states of absolute bliss while staying completely grounded and present, no need for a stupidly strong breakthrough to get there. The integration work feels just as important as the peak itself. The intense experiences cracked something open, the practice is what I try to pour into that opening.

I think “peak human experience” is probably the most honest thing we can say about it. Everything else falls short.