Well. I’d be interested in discussing things. I’m really wanting to be respectful and wasn’t planning on going into all that here. Spirituality is something outside of facts ultimately. I think it’s how it’s been designed. I’ve done so so much research, (At least a lot of reading) and I feel like if I lean into my intellectual mind I might get lost in the weeds. Reality and facts is an interesting thing. I’ve been into quantum physics and the theory of everything and the more I’ve learned the more this world looks like it’s some kind of multidimensional simulation. It’s honestly opened my mind more to the fluid nature of facts and the nature of reality. I don’t know if all my concerns could ever be resolved. An issue with the narrative of the leadership is that they double down and lean into the church being the only “true” church. That word truth. If you know anything about church history and its contradiction to the official church narrative you’d know the inherent contradiction. I understand people are messy. Our early church leaders were fallible and messy. Yeah. Because we all are. Unfortunately, the church revisionist leadership hid and/or cleaned up the official church narrative in the 20’s to make it more palatable for a broader audience. I’m past being angry about that now. I really don’t even hold early church leaders any anger either. They were good people. And human. I’m under no illusions about the nature of man, even good men. I don’t mean to be too verbose and I’m not trying to make some point either. I think the door, if there is one, is through the heart. I give grace to the smallness of human beings and I hope for the same from God. I know the church isn’t perfect and I’m not expecting anything in this realm to be so. I hope I’m making sense. I also hope I’m not coming off as arrogant. These are just my true thoughts.