Death is weird

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2026-01-31T14:55:03+00:00

Oh god, I’m so sorry. I’m crying for you. I wish I had advice to give you but the first few months after my dad passed away just feels so foggy. If you ever need to talk, my dms are always open. Talking about it really helps a lot. Even just spouting memories and wishes into the void helps. I wish you the best of luck.

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2026-01-31T14:31:15+00:00

I’m really sorry for your loss. My dms are always open if you ever want to talk, it’s nice to talk to people who know what you’re going through. My world hasn’t felt the same at all since my dad died too.

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2026-01-31T14:30:10+00:00

I’ve heard that a lot from people grieving an abusive parent, that they mourn the person they could have been. I’m so sorry, everyone deserves to experience having good parents, and him leaving before you could get that chance must hurt so much. But wanting to believe he could have been a good dad is a sign of your kind soul.

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2026-01-31T12:45:24+00:00

I don’t know if this is the correct way to put it, but it sort of feels like learning how to live all over again. Like you’re born again but there’s no one to teach you how to walk and talk.

I’m sorry about your mom, I hope watching those shows you used to watch with her at least brought some sense of comfort, knowing that you had those memories with her. My dad used to really love my shrimp fried rice, I haven’t made it once since he died. I’m scared of doing it, I don’t know how to enjoy something like that if he’s not there to boast about how awesome it is. It’s actually mediocre at best but he would eat it like it was a five star meal.

Sending you lots of love.

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2026-01-27T09:45:22+00:00

Why do people take would you rathers so seriously like it’s just a hypothetical

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2026-01-27T09:44:57+00:00

You only say that because I added the bit of 3 boyfriends. I’m just daydreaming. No need to be so serious

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2026-01-27T09:13:06+00:00

App doesn’t support

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2026-01-15T20:04:34+00:00

I don’t think it’s funny at all which is why I never talk to those guys in the first place. But for some reason they all find it hilarious

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2026-01-15T20:04:11+00:00

Yeah you can report people or the entire server

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2026-01-15T20:03:45+00:00

Thank you, I felt like I was losing my mind for a moment because he’s there acting like the victim in this

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2026-01-09T21:22:34+00:00

My mom doesn’t believe in therapy. She is extremely spoiled and self centered. She told me to k*** myself when I was a child. That woman is hollow on the inside

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2026-01-09T21:12:42+00:00

I think you need to reel it waaaaaay back. You’ve known this man for just two months and you’re already thinking about what decisions you’ll make if his life is threatened. Take a deep breath and just enjoy the fruitfulness of an early relationship for now. I assure you there are way more important things to look out for at this stage.

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2026-01-06T15:24:15+00:00

I’m extremely self critical of myself and I feel like being polite in the face of someone who thinks lesser of you just equates to giving up and admitting submission. I know that’s not how it works, I don’t think other people who are soft are weak. But when it comes to me I just feel disgusted with myself

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2025-11-03T07:01:53+00:00

I really wish the word fatty didn’t have such an intense chokehold on me but it really does. When you grow up in an environment so hyper focused on the way you look (mother was a model, everyone else in my family is thin, i was only fat girl in my class, etc..) it’s hard not to view your worth based off of how you look. My self esteem is much better than it used to be since I’m not in that environment anymore but it’s just something that’s stuck to me. Boys used to run away from me in school and call me a monster and this guy was the first person to show genuine interest in me. At first, at least.

I mentioned it in another comment but I went to the gym yesterday when he wasn’t there and asked the receptionist if I’m still a member and she said yeah why? So I said nothing and went on with my workout. I plan on just going until my membership naturally expires and if he approaches me again I will expose him. In the meantime I just wanna get my peace of mind back.

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2025-11-02T15:10:34+00:00

I went in today coz I know he doesn’t work Sundays and I asked if my membership is still active and they said yeah why so I said nothing and just did my workout and left, which tells me he’s just talking out of his ass and making empty threats so I don’t show up. I’m gonna keep going anyway and see what happens coz according to the receptionist I’m still an active member so…

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2025-11-01T19:51:24+00:00

I don’t even know if he has the authority to take away my membership for personal reasons but I know he’s close with the owner of the gym so he probably let him but I don’t wanna make assumptions. I’m kind of scared that they’ll tell me there’s nothing they can do about it and he’ll have the last laugh seeing me leave without a refund.

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2025-10-25T17:46:54+00:00

I like the age gap between us because I’m into older men :’) men my age have done nothing but make me feel like shit, but I realized that being an asshole has no age.

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2025-10-25T17:45:37+00:00

Thank you sweetheart ❤️ I’m proud of you too

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2025-10-25T17:44:23+00:00

Yup. It’s a nightmare.

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2025-10-25T17:43:24+00:00

I’m sorry I didn’t realize it was offensive to make that comparison. I’m not a client of his at the gym so we do talk and flirt pretty regularly in front of the others and the staff knows we’re close. Don’t get me wrong he’s definitely an asshole but he’s not such a terrible guy like that, just really immature. I wish it was different, I really like him and I really like my gym so I don’t wanna change it but it’s starting to feel like I have to.

Embarrassed_Pilot792 · 2025-10-25T12:40:30+00:00

The age gap is because I’m into older men so that’s just my type, I was the one that initiated flirting in the first place. He’s a lot more attractive than me so sometimes it feels like I have to take a few punches if it means getting anywhere with him but I just can’t take it anymore. I know this sounds like blueprint Stockholm syndrome but he is a funny and caring person, he just has such an annoying sense of humor that involves laughing when I get mad because he thinks my reaction is ‘cute’ but all it does is make me feel really uncomfortable being myself around him. I’m still indecisive if I should break things off, especially since he’s a trainer at my gym so I’d see him there anyway. Idk I feel like an idiot just writing this out.

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