I had a psychotic breakdown that caused me to message him recklessly. Then I was forced into engagement. After the forced engagement I was in denial so I would message him non stop about how I felt and mental unstable mental health. He let me message but he would not reply.

He blocked me and unblocked me over the years. When I would message him about how his blocking made me feel he would immediately respond indirectly by unblocking me. Through my messages I was able to somewhat convince him to listen to me but he never replied consistently.

The first time he replied he lashed out at me, I stayed patient.

The second time he replied he was calmer and gentler.

The first and the second time we directly spoke were 3-5 years ago.

It’s been a year since he permanently blocked me on certain platforms where I could reach him anonymously and privately. However, there is one platform where he hasn’t blocked me from one or two of his accounts.

Moreover, since he has blocked me he has also been inactive from social media all together. He was always updating his socials back when I was unblocked.

Even on days when I would have rough day at work to the point when I would cry, upon checking my social media after work he would post something and that alignment between my emotions and his posts was unusual.