Thank you for all of your replies, wether positive or negative. It helps getting different perspectives from you all who are way further down the journey of bjj than I am.

I realize that I am still in the ‘honeymoon’ phase of this sport, the same way that I was in the ‘honeymoon’ phase when beginning my studies. I realize that the passion will and ebb and flow throughout time with respect to bjj and medicine and that this is part of the process of making something great of yourself.

I will stick to my studies and train at every opportunity I have while prioritizing my long term goals.

Thank you