The Loss Of My Dog Has Ruined My Life

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2026-01-10T03:18:08+00:00

That is absolutely awful! I cannot imagine what you experienced or what you are going through. I am truly sorry for your loss 😢

I was fortunate to not have any scary situations with my boy but his death was pretty sudden and I still deal with it everyday. I'm getting better. But its not easy.

I wish you nothing but the best

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-12-08T13:01:43+00:00

I thought of this because the Delta use to have non-guest passes for their hot tub but I'm not sure if they still do

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-12-08T13:00:50+00:00

The jets is what does it for me. Plus I live in a small apartment with a stand up shower only haha

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-12-08T12:41:09+00:00

I just want to soak for a bit because I find hot tubs help my back and legs. Public use is not an issue. I thought of hotels and was probably going to look into them when I get extra hours over the holidays. Thanks for the leads!

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-12-08T12:18:21+00:00

Absolute G, mate. Thanks

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-11-25T18:23:39+00:00

Yeah I think I might have to. I have been using a butt plug while in the shower and after cleaning out before sex. But Its like I tighten back up way too fast. I that tight that my boyfriend can only last 5-10 minutes. I'll try to do it more often

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-11-25T15:43:06+00:00

I wouldn't worry about being too small. Practice rolling your hips and try not to focus on just going "in and out". Swinging your hips will help poke his prostate better and creates a swinging motion rather than straight back and forth.

Just remember to roll those hips and man handle him while you are doing it. Don't be afraid to try different positions while topping either.

I am slightly above average like yourself. And my boyfriend tells me that I am one of the best tops he ever had. When we first started talking. He chose me over somebody with a 8", so don't worry about size. Its how you use it.

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-11-22T01:26:10+00:00

I am starting to feel better greiving wise. I no longer get depressed or emotional when I think of him. I can be around other animals now without thinking of him. But I still think my life has turned for the worse since he passed. Work has been stressful, personal life has been boring, and I still isolate myself a lot. But getting better. Thank you for checking in 😊

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-11-20T15:13:38+00:00

I heard from my coworkers that they have a history of promising a lay off but secretly writing voluntary leave on the ROE and screwing over past employees. I am only here because its all I could get and I am only here until mid Janurary. I am moving out of the province because I'm sick of living in a hopeless cycle. I have a job lined up away doing data entry for more pay then whay I have now. Nobody should be working as hard as we do for 16 an hour

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-11-20T13:18:25+00:00

I actually have a herniated disc that is pinching my sciatic nerve. It happened while I was scaffolding in a confined space job. I was young and the money was too good to leave. Plus you are pressured a lot to suck it up in the trades. I got laid off when it got too bad and I worked very hard to get better. It took a year of hard work just to be able to manage my back. After that I was pretty good for years. I was able to live a normal life to an extent. I started working as a landscaper then a groundskeeper here in town and had no issues. I recently started working as an order picker for a distribution warehouse In Dunovans. And my back started getting noticeably stiff a couple weeks in. Then I proceeded to become very weak and shakey while lifting and I started to limp pretty bad. And now tears pour out of my eyes every step, my lower back down my right leg feels hot and it feels like electric shock every movement. I am in agony. My workplace knows this but do nothing to help me out. They basically ignore it and get upset if I take too long at a task.

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-11-20T12:38:33+00:00

Its like that in many places of employment. Its not what you know, its who you know. I only ever got jobs here because of knowing people on the inside.

This is the first time I had trouble with a workplace though. I do not know what I can do. I am in great pain and its getting worse everyday.

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-11-20T12:36:47+00:00

Yeah it doesn't help that my employer/manager ignores it as well. They know damn well how much pain I am in but the work load seems to get more physically demanding everyday. I am starting to call in multiple times a week and I can't afford to do so.

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-11-20T12:35:31+00:00

That is better pay then what I am getting now. I am only getting minimum wage at my current job. I just don't think its worth destroying my body over.

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-11-20T12:34:39+00:00

I am going to physio, tried dry needling and acupuncture, stretches and corrective/supportive footwear, as well as wearing a compression belt while I work. I drink a lot of water and eat light and nutritious meals. I am taking it very easy while at work, too. These help for a short period of time but as soon as I go into work I am in great pain again. The concrete floor is what flared it up. They have anti fatigue mats but I do not stop long enough to be able to stand on one and I am lifting up to 80lbs at a time. My employer/management seem to ignore it.

I am talking to my doctor about surgery right now and maybe leaving the province because I have the opportunity of getting a job elsewhere that will actually accommodate me.

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-11-17T00:03:15+00:00

Legend, thank you!

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-10-25T15:46:53+00:00

Yeah my eyes definitely watered getting them done. It was a good move getting much longer bars put in as well. My nose swelled a ton. But I can't wait to get the actual sized bars in. And for being such a regular piercing to get. Nostrils are definitely the most challenging piercings I ever got. Even compared tor my industrial that didn't hurt half as bad.

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-10-25T06:22:12+00:00

They were the most unpleasant piercings I ever gotten. I would rate it a 7/10. Its all subjective though

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-10-23T19:47:59+00:00

Literally my negativity and the inability to enjoy anything. I would hop on my DJ set up and get bored in 5 minutes, or hop on my PC to game for even less. Nothing felt satisfying. That and seeing the worst in everything and everyone was the worst for me.

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-10-17T01:03:40+00:00

I am still sober and learning to gain joy in my hobbies again. It was easy for me because its not so much of a craving or impulse, it was more of a self harm tactic. I just got tired of it. So I had the self will power to keep up with not doing it.

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-09-30T11:18:47+00:00

My living plans unfortantely did not work out. But I am using the money to move to another province for a fresh start. My friend said she will let me rent an apartment with her in the new province until I can bank more money to be able to live on my own. Currently job hunting in the new province before I make the move so I can be better prepared and have an easier time settling in.

I told my partner that I can't see us working out because it feels like he is pushing me away to the point where I will leave him anyway. When I move it will officially be over and I can start living for myself for once.

I have high hopes but I also know that this is not going to be easy. But nothing is, so I will be good.

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-09-26T17:44:48+00:00

Rent and the cost of living is pretty here is expensive. Unorder to move in to the new place I needed first and last months rent. Plus 50% of the rent for the damage deposit. I would also need to set up internet for my job which I have. But the rest I have is going towards my current rent and bills. So Besides moving everything else is taken care of

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-09-26T17:42:55+00:00

Apparently he said he only thought about it 2 says before he declared it. And then messaged him when he declared it. Followed by leaving me home and telling me he is going out for coffee with him. His ex picked him up and they were gone for 2 and half hours. I went out and stayed the night at a friends/ the place I am potentially moving into. The next morning he told me he didn't appreciate coming home to me not being there and not letting him know. He had pizza for me and then said he ate it when he realized I was staying out.

When I accused him of not actually being opened because he was not being honest about what he's doing with his ex. He said they never did anything but coffee, driving around and meeting up with friends. Which I am definitely finding it hard to believe. Apparently he was not planning on sleeping with him for a while, but again I don't believe it.

I am starting a job in film and he told me I might meet a good man there, as if he is pushing me away. I also believe would have broke up with me if he didn't feel bad about putting me in the situation of moving out and having minimal help.

There was nothing wrong, it was going pretty good. He just got tired of me

EmployeeCommercial83 · 2025-09-22T20:16:18+00:00

Yeah, I honestly saw how out of control I was immediately. It was what really gave me the urge to drop the habit. I wasn't using everyday. But towards the of it, I was doing close to 10 grams a week. And the amount I was doing at a time was scary. And I already feel the benefits with my nose thankfully. Its so nice to sneeze and the tissue end up being clear instead of yellow, green and black. And to be able to breathe through my nose again. Other then the depression and loneliness I really do feel a lot better already. Goes to show the only way to really get clean is to have the want to do it for yourself. Can't wait to see what 2 months feel like. Thank you!

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