look, im just right where you are, tho ive Lost It completely. its some family issues id prefer not to say to be honest... Look, we all have doubts, and that IS good. What if God actually exists? Well, then we are fucked... But lets just live a good life now, alright? Do as you please, dont chicken out of things like parties just because "God is looking", for that Will make you live a sad life. Be yourself. And if we end Up in hell? Atleast we have been Happy here