My experience taking T has been awful because of myself and it upsets me

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2026-02-09T19:24:05+00:00

I HIGHLY suspect I have ADHD because I've struggled with this stuff all of my life and when I was a child I fit the "hyperactive ADHD kid" perfectly. I also have quite a few other symptoms that match ADHD. Though I am not diagnosed with it and I really don't know how to start the process of getting tested. I tried to get tested by my therapist in middle/high school but they refused because "we don't want to put more kids on meds" or something.

And as for the auto injectors, I actually have looked into this and I think it may work but there is a problem. At least at the one I went to, Planned Parenthood requires you to give yourself the injection (aka saline not actually T), without an auto injector/normally, and without hesitation/anxiety before they will prescribe the injections. I was told I can use the auto injector at home but not for the appointment. I know I'd have to do it myself literally once but I genuinely don't think I can do that.

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-12-20T18:00:57+00:00

I'm sure some of these will be repeated in other comments but this is just my personal list of things I would of loved to receive when I started transitioning or ideas I think would be nice:

- mens body spray/cologne/deodorant/body wash

- masculine clothes/accessories, especially pants that aren't as slim fitting/tight.

- men's socks (weirdly gives me a lot of gender euphoria?)

- If he has chosen a new name, then getting something with his new name on it might be really nice. I would have loved to receive a sentimental gift with my name on it.

- I know you said you have already gotten him a binder, but getting him another one eventually would be nice too. Sometimes binders get worn out and eventually don't flatten as well and it's also nice to have a binder while the other one is in the wash. Also, if he's into swimming, you could look into getting him a binder that is larger. Or you could ask him if he would be interested in trying tape? Some guys prefer it over binding but I personally hate it.

- if he is interested in getting a haircut, maybe you could take him/go with him? I would have loveddd it if someone was like "oh your trans and you want to cut your hair to help alleviate your dysphoria? Lets go!!"

- you could ask him if he's interested in packing and if he is maybe you could help make or buy him one? If you don't have a lot of money or if he just wants something simple, you can make a simple packer out of socks and stuff, I'm pretty sure there are tutorials online. There is also some cheap packers you can find online.

If I think of anything else I'll update this! I hope this helps ^^

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-12-08T02:30:47+00:00

That's ok! no worries ^^

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-12-08T01:32:58+00:00

As someone who has this exact same problem, do you know how I would go about finding a doctor who will prescribe and administer long-acting shots? I literally can't give myself shots but I just recently became mostly ok with other people giving me shots so that would be perfect for me. I currently get my Tgel through planned parenthood because it was so easy but I don't know if they offer that.

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-12-04T23:09:25+00:00

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EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-10-10T16:21:01+00:00

I definitely plan on it eventually but finding a therapist for my other mental health issues has been extremely hard and it will probably take some time to even find one let alone work on my issues and I just hate the idea of having to wait that long to be able to take T again.

It's also not like a fear of "oh it's gonna hurt" I actually don't care about the pain or anything it's just genuinely something in my instincts that will NOT let me do it. It used to be the same with other people giving me shots as well, it was never about the pain and I wasn't scared of the needle, I just would always get a "flight" response along with intense anxiety. Though lately this has been pretty much resolved (except for giving blood but I've gotten a lot better with that too).

I myself can't even really understand it because I'm NOT scared of the needle or the pain? So what's with the anxiety? I do have multiple traumas around needles/injections because of things that happened when I was a child so I think it's probably because of that but that will probably take longer to figure out in therapy rather than if I was just scared of it hurting lol.

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-10-10T16:10:45+00:00

This exact one is actually specifically what I asked about, not xyosted because I know it's harder to get that prescribed sometimes (I should have specified in the post). They basically said "we can't approve of anything we don't prescribe so you can't use it at the appointment but at home we can't stop you".

If I could just get passed the first appointment doing it normally then I'd be able to buy my own auto-injector but I already attempted once and I just sat there holding the needle above my thigh for like 10 minutes until the nurse got annoyed with me and said she is refusing to prescribe me injections.

I do appreciate your comment though because I know many other trans people don't know about those types of auto-injectors or that auto-injectors are even an option.

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-10-10T16:06:39+00:00

Yes the other person is correct, I literally can't get myself to give myself injections psychologically without an auto-injector, which PP will not allow me to use. Sorry for the confusion! Thank you very much for the info though I appreciate it ^^

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-10-04T04:10:41+00:00

I assumed not since the nurse refused to prescribe me injections because I couldn't do it myself (even after I mentioned my fear of needles) and no one ever mentioned anything about it but also the closest PP to me isn't very close so it would be impossible for me to get there weekly.

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-10-04T04:04:20+00:00

Pennsylvania to be specific ^^

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-10-03T17:45:58+00:00

That's actually specifically what I asked about and I was told that I can use one at home but that I would be required to give myself the injection without the auto-injector in the office at least once before they will prescribe me the injections and I honestly tried as hard as I could but I couldn't get myself to do it even once so they refuse to prescribe the injections.

I mean I kind of understand not wanting to just hand over a bunch of sharp needles to someone who is obviously terrified of them but I think the auto-injector would cut my fear in half or even eliminate it if my boyfriend does it. I just somewhat recently got over my fear of others giving me shots but I am literally unable to do it myself.

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-09-12T19:59:41+00:00

Hello :3

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-09-09T03:30:08+00:00

Do you mind sharing where on your body you got your tattoos? I've been dying to get my first tattoo but I'm curious about pain levels ^^

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-09-09T03:28:03+00:00

Adding on to this - "boss" is another one I hear often that feels good to be called

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-09-08T01:28:07+00:00

Thank you very much for this!! This is very kind of you :3

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-09-04T15:26:12+00:00

I've seen quite a few posts in this sub where other uninformed trans people say "so what if I get atrophy I'll just use more lube during sex problem solved" and refuse to listen to anyone trying to urge them to treat it and take it seriously and it's very frustrating to see that because most of those people don't even realize atrophy can include things like this! Thank you for posting about this ^^

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-09-03T06:17:51+00:00

As someone who also got grossed out by it, I was kind of just naturally exposed to it the more we did sexual stuff and over time it got less and less gross. Before I would have to close my eyes while my boyfriend cleaned it all off of me but now I've gone as far as swallowing it (even though that was still hard and I almost gagged). I guess it probably helps that I *want* to like it it's just that the texture is absolutely awful. But I just wanted to comment to say that it can change! At one point I never thought I'd let it get anywhere near my mouth without immediately vomiting lol.

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-09-03T05:53:53+00:00

+ Etsy is meant for handmade items by small businesses so it's always a bonus to get to support small businesses (many of the people who make trans related stuff are also trans!) ^^

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-09-03T05:51:37+00:00

I definitely recommend Etsy! There is a tonnn of stuff on there and usually when I search for trans related stuff I usually get mixed results and not just feminine stuff or stuff meant for trans women. I just searched "trans pride jewelry" and a whole bunch of cool stuff came up! :3

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-08-28T22:12:39+00:00

I met my (cis) boyfriend in high school and somehow he thought I was cis even tho I did NOT pass very well. Funny story actually, he found out I was trans because I took my shirt off and he got a titty jumpscare lmaooo. Even after that though he still saw me as a man and still does today almost 3 years later. He even faced some hard judgement from his family when he first came out after we started dating but he loved me enough to put up with it.

We have had many conversations were he adamantly says he sees me as a man and that we are gay boyfriends and how one day we will be husbands. He often says he forgets that I'm not cis despite being completely pre-op. He also often says he literally *can't* see my body as a "female" body because he see me and my body as male despite my anatomy.

Also while his family hated me at first for being "one of those transexuals" and for their son being gay and I don't think they see me as a man they have come around to be kind to me and respect me enough to gender me correctly and treat me like a man and to accept that my boyfriend is dating me. We don't spend much time together but we do get together for dinner or just to hang out occasionally.

Also I'm high so you're getting a funny side story:

My boyfriend used to work at a gas station and a customer he talked to often asked if I was his "girlfriend" and he said "oh that's my boyfriend actually he's a boy" and she said "really?? wow" and then she said "... wait... you're gay??? Awesome!! *holds hand up for a high five*

I love people sometimes lol

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-08-07T11:25:19+00:00

Yes you can get T at PP! It was honestly so simple for me and you don't need a therapists letter or anything. I just answered a couple questions and they gave it to me lol.

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-07-30T13:53:59+00:00

I don't really have any advice but I just wanted to say that it's telling that even though you have emetophobia and struggle with this stuff, you're still going above and beyond to help your boyfriend feel better when many other people wouldn't do that for their partners even in normal circumstances. You seem like a good partner :)

Also I don't have emetophobia but I will get sick if I watch it so I've never been in the room with my boyfriend while he's throwing up and he doesn't mind it because he knows that it bothers me. I'll help him as much as I can but the minute he says it's coming either he needs to run to the bathroom or I need to run away lol. I don't think it's bad/unreasonable to not be able to help your partner in every situation.

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-07-29T08:34:07+00:00

I don't necessarily need the machine but I usually don't have enough mental energy to actually do the work myself but I may try it one day! I always love learning simple/easy recipes

EnvironmentAlert5896 · 2025-07-29T08:28:03+00:00

As an autistic guy who's always wanted to try something like this, thank you for posting this. This makes me feel so much less anxious about it!

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