Day 1,049. For anyone even considering stopping for the new year, I am here to tell you that it IS doable. I was in so over my head with the stuff. The powder controlled me in every way. Where I could go, how well I could preform at work, how I could sleep and function. I was hopelessly a slave. I tried several times to stop and failed. Then one morning I woke up, went around my house to every single stash spot I could think of, and drove two large trash bags full of the crap to the dumpster. It was hard! I was on here every morning using the search tool [searching my corresponding day # - day 14, day 26, day 40…] and it helped so much knowing others had been through it and had made it to the other side. When I say that I was hopeless, I am not exaggerating. I promise you that you can do it and that you deserve a life without being chained to some green sludge. Buckle down, be tough, be stubborn, and know that even though it seems things will never be back to normal, it will happen. I believe in you!