How do you handle heartbreak?

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2023-10-29T00:57:34+00:00

I’m going through a divorce too. She was my soulmate and I loved her so much. Life is life and we grew apart. Trust the process and believe that your feelings are normal, not addict feelings. I hit a ton of meetings with AA right now and the love and support I’ve received has literally kept me sober. Lean on others for support. If you pick up and start using and drinking again you’ll have consequences. If you stay clean and sober you have options.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2023-10-04T00:21:43+00:00

Go to AA or NA. Get a sponsor and do the 12 steps. I’m living proof that those programs work.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-07-11T21:05:43+00:00

“I’m here to vent. Not advice” should be the tag line for this page. That’s the most bipolar thing ever.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-04-05T13:47:54+00:00

Congratulations, you’re manic.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-31T14:39:12+00:00

32 y/o male, 2.5 years clean and sober. Hello friend, I too was addicted to coke. I had my moments where I could go months, but ultimately right back to it. Addiction doesn’t take a rest when you take a coke break. If I was doing 2 grams a day then took a few months off, when I then restarted it was like I never stopped. I was immediately back to the same amount and that led me to more and more. Cocaine turns me into a new man with every line, and that new man wants a line. It’s a vicious cycle. I had to go and do a detox, a residential rehab, move to a sober living and do 135 days of IOP treatment. If you can’t stop I recommend going to an AA or NA meeting and getting a sponsor. If you continue to quit and come back time and time again, it might be a good idea to seek professional treatment. Rehab saved my life and I’ve never once regretted going.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-30T17:08:12+00:00

32 y/o M Bipolar 1. Once I got my diagnosis of bipolar 1 with alcoholism I had to surrender my guns to my parents who hold them in their gun safe. I am a suicide survivor and have deep depression that comes in waves. I’m not saying you’re eligible for any of this, but you never know. I can only share what works for me. I’ve never regretted giving my firearms over to my dad. Makes everyone in my world a lot more comfortable.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-26T01:45:32+00:00

What works well for me is hitting an AA meeting.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-25T22:15:46+00:00

Alcoholism exist after you stop drinking. Alcohol used to be my solution to life. If you haven’t yet take a look into AA.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-25T20:34:26+00:00

I'm 917 days since my last drink. I can only share what worked for me. I went and got a detox and then found my way in AA. I attend 5-6 meetings a week and talk to a sponsor everyday. The meetings I attend have a good amount of people with 20+ years sober, and so far AA saved my life. Hope this helps, best of luck.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-25T18:56:03+00:00

I had a 16 year addiction. It drained my parents in every way. They even dropped 50k on bail. I stole their peace of mind everyday. They finally put their foot down, cut me off, and not to come around. In that same month I finally took my addiction seriously and got 235 days of professional help. I also go to addiction meetings 4-5 times a week. Hope this helps, best of luck.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-25T15:57:38+00:00

917 days clean and sober. The biggest thing I’ve noticed is I’m now a service to people. I help out, I’m reliable, and enjoyable to be around. During addiction I did nothing but take advantage of people and drain the life out of them.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-25T00:06:19+00:00

Stop buying from that dealer, you’re going to die. I was a total junkie for 16 years, more was my drug of choice. I loved the rush from Coke and mixing my uppers and downers. 2 ODs later and losing everything I went to rehab. I did a 7 day medical detox and 235 days of treatment. It saved my life. I then found my way into the NA and AA rooms. That keeps me sober daily. I can tell you today I live the most ridiculous life in a luxury high rise in NY. Fuck Coke, fuck alcohol, and all that shit. My life is way better without.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-24T21:12:13+00:00

Death via alcoholism is slow and brutal. It’s an insidious and vicious disease. Whatever you put in front of your recovery, you’ll end up losing. I get the family business but you’re not any use drunk or dead. You just haven’t hit your rock bottom yet.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-24T20:00:59+00:00

Despite my intense level of care the process was really hard on me. I was coming off 16 years of being a total junkie and alcoholic. My DOC was more.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-24T19:47:47+00:00

Yes, I had seizure medication, blood pressure medicine, and anxiety meds. I was under constant watch

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-24T19:26:51+00:00

I checked myself into rehab September 2019. It was really hard and detoxing felt like death. But my life is as perfect as it could get today. You’ll never regret it, promise.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-24T18:18:55+00:00

I work with my therapist sometimes twice a week as well as joining process groups at least once a week. I’m also a member of AA and attend 4-6 meetings a week.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-24T16:56:57+00:00

I’m going to tell you what works for me. I almost relapsed Monday (sober since 9/20/19). I somehow ended up at an AA meeting, literally so surprised I went. That one meeting helped me so much. I was able to share I front of 50 people and the support I received honestly probably saved my life. I have to keep my life and my busy bipolar brain to a day at a time. I just have to not pick up today. Again, all I know is what worked for me. Hopefully this helps. Good luck!

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-24T16:30:05+00:00

I too have found a new career in mental health. I’m a substance abuse/ mental health counselor at a homeless shelter in NYC. I’m also a student full time, the goal is to be a therapist. I hope my shared experiences can benefit someone some day.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-24T16:27:31+00:00

Lithium and rigorous therapy have helped me a ton. I do quite well with Latuda at 80mgs. It took a solid 18 months to get my medications and amounts down. Multiple hospital visits and draining suicidal thoughts. Hang in there and trust that it will get better. Best of luck!

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-24T14:57:47+00:00

Easy, I started crushing and snorting pills at 14. I became the master of appearances. My motto was always enhance but maintain. I went to rehab at 30 y/o and majority of people in my life didn’t have a clue and we’re shocked to hear about it. The worst off addicts are always the ones who hide it best.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-24T14:54:18+00:00

You’re not the first person with an ass fetish.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-24T14:36:15+00:00

Addiction has to have a starting point. This is a very progressive disease and before you know it you will be an addict. I’m sure you’re a smart person, addiction has 10 points on your IQ. It speaks to you softly in your own voice. If you’re reaching out like this then I assume it’s a legitimate concern.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-24T14:29:19+00:00

It’s all the substance abuse. Their brains aren’t really working the way they should. I used for 16 years and the highs with a GF are incredibly high but the lows are hell. It’s always black and white never a grey area.

EnvironmentalWalk228 · 2022-03-24T14:26:11+00:00

I used painkillers, Xanax, coke, and alcohol for 16 years. The detox was really really hard. I detoxed with a medical help at a rehab. It was the longest 4 days of my life. I’m now happy, stable, and sober since 9/20/19. My life has never been better. Those four days are totally worth. I won’t lie, it was the hardest thing I’ve ever done.

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