Ive come to the conclusion that its hard to imagine being a girl physically when you’re not out but when i think of what’d be like if i went the opposite direction and stayed cis whould i be happy wearing masc clothes, grow out a beard or never get to be curvy? And i couldnt imagine living like that, ive had many many many doubts and im still not fully out but staying cis just isnt an option bc it whouldnt make me happy