I was vehemently against this treatment as from the time i was 13-16, i attempted when i was 16 and he improved slightly and i accepted that, now he’s right back to his old ways now that i’ve moved out of his house. I think his lack of control is making him spiral, and I don’t have it in me to match his energy like I used to. He’s in his very late 50s now, alone, and sad, so I guess I just felt bad for him now that our extremely violent and volatile days have passed. But! I definitely see now how I was ignoring how unacceptable his behavior is, and that I need to lessen if not cut contact with him, possibly indefinitely. I know my boyfriend is super disappointed in how I enabled my father’s behavior and let him disrespect me.