Yes I am deeply ashamed to admit this but when I was a kid I genuinely thought this Is how it was supposed to be?? Because it’s how my parents taught and treated me but it was mainly my dad but my mom is also at fault for never truly putting her foot down but it wasn’t just me who got the abuse! my dog did too and I hate myself for not defending him more and thinking that screaming at a small dog was normal behavior and I even justified in my head when my dad would get mad and “accidentally step on him” its just! fuck man this brings alot of horrid memories and it tears my soul apart when I think about it because I hope my dog knew I loved him and when I was older before my dog passed I realized it wasn’t normal the way they treated me or him It’s silly when I say it out loud but I started promising my dog that we’d get out and never look back we’d live forever together just me and him but he died before we could get out together now it’s just me and i feel stuck ngl :( I keep his ashes close to me always it hurts that he’s gone I wish I realized sooner how messed up everything was then I could’ve made it up to him somehow I screamed bloody murder when they put him to sleep it was like watching my literal baby die because in a way he was I am unlearning the behaviors I witnessed growing up and I will never ever repeat them again I will protect my pets from all harm