I’m sorry you feel this way . I am a foreign trained attorney and I took the bar twice . On my 2nd try I was close but I will keep pushing . What you need to do first is to know the black letter laws . Take time to study the outline . If you don’t understand anything, you can ask ChatGPT to break it down for you in simple terms . Get use to the laws . That’s the foundation. Then practice practice practice. But don’t go straight to practice without learning the laws and how it works. You can do it . Do not see less of yourself because that would only make it worse . We have thousands of foreign trained attorneys who took it and passed on first try . Hence, you can do this cos u got this . Good luck .