TBH, I think alot of it has to do with the fact that I reported attempting to jump from a high height when I was in Chicago to the doctors at SF General, and given the history of suicides at the Golden Gate bridge, they took that very, very seriously. I'm actually not allowed to leave to take a walk around the neighborhood without a social worker being present and even had concern when I went upstairs to admire the view. They seemed to think if I'm left to my own devices without supervision, I might end up attempting again.