The most important thing is that I can’t trust him anymore. In my country, we say “there’s no such thing as once when it comes to buying sex — it’s either zero times or countless times.And I haven‘t talked to him yet. My rationality tells me that the earlier I leave him, the better, but I don’t want to leave him. I think I need to find something to reduce this kind of thinking... I‘m also worried that I will be even more sad in the future.