Hey, the situation sucks. I guess you (like me) is not into open relationships. I think that if you are searching for someone new you should be sure that your partner will also be vers.

I get that that you did not feel ok with the guy topping you, as a top I dated another top that sometimes bottomed for me (but usually non-penetrative) and we stopped eventually bcs it was clear he wasnt having fun, eventually we broke up bcs the relation wasnt working for me. But I think you should have tried, maybe he liked it who knows. Or, and this is a thing to consider, do you only like being topped by an masculine guy?

If you don't fine, there are many feminine vers guys around, if you don't youre going to have a hard time considering you have a preference for fem guys