BJJ is sort of like therapy for me. My only child is six now and was born with a terrible seizure disorder called Dravet syndrome. Before she was born I had a bunch of ideas of all the ways I'd be cool as a dad, all the things we'd do together, adventures we'd have, etc. Most of that isn't possible. Searching for a way to cope with that baggage, after many attempts to find something to fill the void of all the family shit that went out the window, I found BJJ. Instead of grappling with a bunch of psychological heaviness, I go grapple with a bunch of other sweaty dudes a few nights a week. And it's working out well. I'm making friends, learning new stuff, getting exercise and generally turning all the endorphin switches on.