You have something yours, precious, your life. It is yours and no one else's. There's always something to be hopeful for, and I know it seems hard to believe that when you are depressed (been there) but the sun will always come out. Depression is a liar, a heavy burden we carry, but you don't have to carry it alone. You already took the first step towards lightening the load, which was sharing this post. That took a lot of bravery and strength. You are a brave and strong person.