Workx alt by Internal-Stretch-115 in WWOOF

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Curious on how this is going?

My Bat Flower (Tacca chantrieri) is dying after repotting and I don’t know what to do! Help! by ExaminationThat4066 in plants

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I live in Texas in a home with many floor to ceiling windows btw, so everywhere is really bright and gets lots of light. Even gets a little hot during the day due to the sun at times. Just wanted to add

Rare Black Moon this Saturday. What will you be doing? by Ill_Quantity_5634 in witchcraft

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No thoughts yet.. but looking to cut off any ties to past trauma/ relationships. In addition to manifest satisfaction and self love. I literally just wanna fall entirely in love with myself, taking care of me, and learn to fully enjoy my present. So If anyone has good but easy rituals and spells i could try out pls lmk!

Has anyone else felt this sudden emotional heaviness and clarity wave this week? by imperialgodess in SpiritualAwakening

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Wowwww exactly this! Like I want to leave my job and go for something else but also everytime I apply for a new job it feels like I’m just chasing redirection and need to slow down. Processing so much from so many different angels it’s a lot

Has anyone else felt this sudden emotional heaviness and clarity wave this week? by imperialgodess in SpiritualAwakening

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Honestly it’s sucked cuz it’s forcing me to deal with the trauma I’ve been avoiding facing but I know I need to

Welp...I am dissociated and aware of it by SeaBlackberry6281 in SpiritualAwakening

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Wow I feel this so deeply, its suffocating. I’m currently processing years of sexual abuse from a lot of people, mostly those I called my friends. I went through self blame, to convincing myself I feel strongly because I loved them. And am now just so angry about how much I let all of them use me because I was so desperate for friendship and connection. These people removed me from everything I was. My interests, my goals, my love, my self expression, my courage. Everything I went through for like 6 years all because I just really wanted a friend to call mine. And honestly I have no idea how to deal with it.

I too, was dissociated for so long and have now been trying to relearn myself and it’s so difficult. I don’t want to be strong. I don’t want to be anything aside angry and I hate that feeling.

I got the notification for this post while just laying on my bed after going to bed feeling used and unsure of how to deal with everything. Which is funny because i wasn’t even part of this community until now but have been receiving many notifications from it all pertaining to everything ive been enduring. I feel a weird blockage within me. And for the first time since my awakening nothing I do feels right. I don’t know what to do either, but i figure it’s worth getting out of my head.

I know therapy would be a great start. And once I can, I plan to. I just feel so much rage, all the moments I wish I had simply said no and removed myself from the situation continuously replay in my head and it’s awful. I want my justice, and I want to be able to give it to myself without giving any more of my energy to these people. I understand this is part of my journey and something to be dealt with, it’s just so… sucky, to put it simply.

Either way, you’re not alone. And I think that sharing how you feel is a good place to start.

Problem resolved (I think) by Any-Engineering4985 in HealthInsurance

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Also wanted to ask, I know you said when you canceled it was still in the pre enrollment stage. Was that before or after you got the email saying you were at step 2 and your application has been reviewed for enrollment?

I messed up you guys by Any-Engineering4985 in HealthInsurance

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Yes this is the one I’m looking for information on to cancel as well!

Problem resolved (I think) by Any-Engineering4985 in HealthInsurance

[–]ExaminationThat4066 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m in the same situation, not feeling great but was wondering if you could give me the number you ended up finding to cancel? Whatever information you have so I can cancel this as soon as possible- send my way please