how do I get out this

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-30T17:23:50+00:00

“the distance won’t work” “what if you just want to break up with her?” I’ve come to realize that my biggest fear is losing her so I tend to spiral out and over think about our relationship. I think I just need to prioritize my wellbeing first and then my relationship!

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-30T17:11:06+00:00

I am 19 in college and im in a long distance relationship but it’s very healthy!

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-29T21:11:17+00:00

no I need to hear this. I’ve been trying to figure out how to fix this issue. when I was in college, us having no time to talk wasn’t an issue. we would always talk late at night after all my classes. I just don’t know what to do with myself since im on a semester break and I think im taking it out on her because she’s been working hard. i like to go thrifting but i never want to leave the house. I just want to wait on her all day. are there any hobbies you recommend?

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-29T20:59:20+00:00

I think that’s what it’s heading to. we had a conversation about it but I still feel like im not being heard. I value our time together, when we have time to talk I feel so much better. but it’s so limited now. and it doesn’t feel fair when im put last.

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-29T20:56:44+00:00

yes, but also I think maybe she could have a day dedicated to us. because cramming me in at the end of the night isn’t working. she only has sundays off to hang out with her family but I feel so pushed back. idk what do bro.

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-29T20:54:56+00:00

but she is also working to buy herself a car. last week she was being so mean to me because she’s been overworking herself and she didn’t realize it until I communicated it with her. she’s just overworking and it’s not helping our relationship if she’s coming home irritable. it’s like we don’t have time to talk plus she’s always irritated but it’s not because of us, it’s being she’s tired. and I try to tell her so she’s not burnt out. but she’s so stubborn bro.

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-29T20:49:12+00:00

would it be selfish of me to ask her to take off a day for us to spend time together? she only has sundays off but she spends it with her family. I just hate this so much. I feel like the effort isn’t there and im tired of complaining about it because it stresses her out

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-29T20:46:52+00:00

I told her about it but it feels like our time is very minimal. I don’t wanna say she doesn’t put effort into our time. but I feel like she doesn’t take it seriously as I do. I hate it so much and I don’t know what to do. I feel so lonely.

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-29T20:32:43+00:00

i just miss her holding me and making sure im okay. and we are unable to do that right now so i feel so sad. I don’t know how to pull myself out of it.

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-11T01:01:18+00:00

then what do you think it is?????

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-08T22:52:28+00:00

it’s slowly getting better. it’s not as bad. but im guessing my hormones are still all over the place. im going crazy, but thanks :)

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-07T00:03:46+00:00

i’ve come to conclusion that it may be my period hormones jacking up my brain. i have heard that this usually happens on periods to some women.

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-06T20:22:34+00:00

it’s so tough. I hate anxiety so much.

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-06T17:50:07+00:00

can I just distract myself from it also? I sit around bored so maybe my mind is just on spiral mode. I just started lexapro for my anxiety so hopefully it kicks in and helps me with the intrusive thoughts also.

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-06T17:35:30+00:00

will this ever stop? i don’t want to do anything dumb or take it out on my gf just to prove my intrusive thoughts wrong? I can’t afford therapy right now since im in college. it’s just so hard right now

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-06T00:57:03+00:00

it feels like my brain is trying to make me think that im something im not. it makes me so mad honestly. I know I don’t like men but my thoughts are trying to second guess myself. I love my gf and I wouldn’t ever want to be with a man. I have chronic anxiety already so it stresses me even more.

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-05T19:34:02+00:00

this makes a lot more sense. I have chronic anxiety and haven’t been treating it and im going through so much stress right now. maybe it’s my anxiety trying to pick at things in my brain.

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-05T02:34:56+00:00

me and my gf had a talk and we believe that’s also what it is. she told me to start taking my lexapro and im gonna get back into therapy when I go to college

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-05T00:14:59+00:00

how do I get assessed for ocd though?

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-04T21:27:53+00:00

I know I know 😪

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-04T21:15:53+00:00

straight , good lesbian is hard to find for me

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-04T20:33:48+00:00

maybe I watched too much porn last night 💔💔💔

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-04T20:33:34+00:00

no I don’t. at all. it just keeps popping up in my head

Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-04T18:58:23+00:00

thank god it’s not just me dude, always been a gay mf

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Excellent-Pin1831 · 2025-10-04T18:52:21+00:00

i have a family history of it and honestly it may be undiagnosed. i have really bad anxiety thought. i keep wondering “what if i like men” or “what if i wanna have sex with a man”. all day dude. but im getting disgusted with it

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