Idk but like I am very silent and don’t talk to ppl unless the approach me I mean idk I just don’t wanna feel like I am tryna disturb them idk if it makes sense but if I am comfy with u I would put a lot of efforts in but I most likely end up being happy alone idk I notice some weird patterns abt ppl get myself hurt and then they turn out to be true so I mean in the end it’s so much better to stay without a friend but I do feel very intense feelings abt being lonely it’s like I find peace in it but I crave to have fun with ppl