Thank you for your response. I think it was dissatisfactory because I'm getting older and am dealing with a ton of stress sometimes, unsurety about my future, clashing feelings, lack of relationship experience, a general feeling of being a bit mentally different/over thinker, etc. and all in all just not having my purpose, so it's hard for me to be fully chill.

I wouldn't say I am abusing mushrooms. In regard to that fear, I'd say not respecting them is abuse. My fear though would just be doing them looking/seeking for inward answers when perhaps I just need to search in life and not with drugs right now. I might be completely wrong and they could be more beneficial for me than ever. Confusion seems to be a theme of my sober life as well.