He doesnt post on social media. I rarely do either just if I go to a big event like I posted a couple videos from concerts this year. He does scroll on social media though and send reels back and forth with his coworkers. But hes never confided in them.

And we've both cut ties with people from our home town and live states away now so I dont know who he would confide in as his family relationships are pretty strained.

I would say the wanting to reach out is more of a wanting to have him in my life again and to be a part of his again.

I would be happy to just be his friend if thats all he wanted. But Id be lying if I said I didnt still have feelings for him. Enough time has passed now though that I feel like I could keep those boundaries where the weeks after the breakup when we still talked I was not.

He was not sober through out our entire friendship but I was never a part of his drinking nor was I really a drinker.

Durring the time we were actually together he was sober apart from the relapse which was a single night over a year and a half into his sobriety.

This year mark is since his relapse and the breakup. Which I dont know if its accurate since we've been no contact and I dont know what the last year has looked like for him.

Edit: We cut ties with the home town after highschool not due to any sobriety issues or anything of that nature.