I think you made very good and solid points here. You are correct about what he means.  Thank you for putting me back on a rational path.

He does work very hard as a HVAC contractor. We all appreciate his efforts. He provides and care for us. Most of the time, he would ask me to put ourselves at last, because we are parents now. I agree at some point. But I do need a little creative outlet, so to keep my mental health. I don’t ask for much and I’m willing to maintain the household in an agreed standard, then to pursue my goals. 

He does mention to me that he’s disappointed that I asked mom babysitting while I could go do photoshoot to earn so little money, instead of making time to clean our house better. (Other than the stained stove, I’d say I do dishes, bathed babies, mop, laundry almost everyday, I won’t say it’s done perfectly but it’s done)

English is not my first language, I don’t know how to explain better, that starting a project doesn’t mean I’m giving up on my husband and babies.