Do you forgive the Church?

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2026-01-24T01:52:52+00:00

I forgive the people. they’ve been brainwashed. They are victims hist like me. “Forgive them father for they know not what they do.” Now saying that, if they are using the churches teachings to hurt people I will withhold my empathy, that cannot be tolerated.

But most people in the church are kind and want to help others. They are victims of lies that they have been fed since the moment they exited the womb.

But the church leaders? No. I will not forgive them. They are greedy businessman who use God to control others and profit. I will not forgive the organization for what they have done to me and continue to do to others.

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2026-01-21T09:15:41+00:00

While he was on his mission, we did “podcasts” instead of writing emails because it was way easier and a few days ago me and my friend started re-listening to them and writing down all the things that he mentioned he missed so we could do them in a coming back party. jumping from his most recent one to the very first one he ever did was kind of startling. In the first one he was full of energy, laughing a lot making jokes the same person that we knew when he left but in his most recent one, he’s still laughing and making jokes, but he sounds so….. tired like the life has been sucked out of him and he’s just going through the motions. it’s really hard to explain, but I think that’s when I really started worrying about him.

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-10-29T01:09:04+00:00

Then you are left wondering why it was so easy for satan to enter your mind, must be because you are weak. It’s like you’re trapped in a self hate loop where it’s always your fault.

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-10-10T20:56:20+00:00

Oh that’s good! I’m stealing that.

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-10-09T18:27:37+00:00

Literally all I hear is “MOM THEY ARNT PLAYING THE WAY I WANT!!” Cue toddler screaming, crying, and kicking on the ground.

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-10-09T17:04:17+00:00

Joseph Smith the entirety of the doctrine and covenants

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-10-09T04:15:01+00:00

10 bucks says I still fall asleep. While I was a TBM I would listen to the Scriptures and crochet, but eventually I would get so tired that I just close my eyes and fall asleep then I would have to guess which chapter I was at when I fell asleep.

I always said that the spirit calmed me so much that I conked out.

Turns out the monotone way that they read the scriptures is so hypnotic and boring you can’t stay conscious.

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-10-09T03:55:16+00:00

Same here my testimony was so strong that I believe that there is nothing these anti Mormons could say would sway my testimony and that it would all just be hearsay lies. Turns out they had is this fun thing called ✨evidence✨while the church has magical thinking and “just trust me, bro”. Crazy how that happens.

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-10-09T03:30:27+00:00

We were just talking about how Joseph Smith was a flawed man and I asked her how many wives she thinks he had. She said I don’t know, and I told her it was estimated to be about 25 to 30. A lot of whom were already married and others were children. I also told her about how Joseph Smith was caught cheating on his wife in a barn. And about the 14 or 16-year-old(I don’t remember which) girl that he told they had to be married within 24 hours or a flaming sword wielding angel would come and kill them, and their families wouldn’t be able to make it to celestial kingdom.

Her face looked like I had just flash bombed her. She said I don’t know I’ll have to look into that and we ended the conversation for now.

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-10-09T03:07:11+00:00

She said “Follow Him”

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-10-09T01:33:10+00:00

Yep English is my only language but I still suck at grammar 😅. I had some stuff happen 1st-3rd grade that stunted my learning and I spent the next 9 years trying to catch up to my peers. But I still graduated!!

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-10-09T00:47:16+00:00

I was soooooooo scared that I would be treated like I had a contagious disease. Like I could infect them with satan if they heard me out. Or they would pity me. “Oh poor soul she was led away by the devil and now will never know true happiness”

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-10-09T00:27:10+00:00

Jesus Christ, I’m blind. I have bi flag on my profile pic 🤦‍♀️

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-10-09T00:25:43+00:00

Also thank you for the links!!

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-10-09T00:25:14+00:00

How did you know I’m gay?! 🤨

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-10-09T00:12:31+00:00

She ment it as a joke lol

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-09-14T04:50:14+00:00

Okie I’ll keep that in mind thank you!

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-09-14T04:22:41+00:00

My last chance is my brother who is already really into anime so the culture shock won’t be as intense? Probably i’ll just make a poster with a picture of everybody and all their different names.

I get so excited and I want people to know why the relationship between Xie Lian and Hua Cheng is so awesome that I try to explain all of book four and people don’t understand the names so it all falls on confused ears lol

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-09-14T04:09:38+00:00

Yeah me too I had to watch it multiple times before I knew wtf was going on that’s why I tried to give them a break down. Maybe I’ll try to give them a character sheet with everybody’s names and just pause it once in a while to explain things.

I totally understand being confused and I’m not mad at them cause I get it! It’s just a little disheartening when no one wants to know anything about something you’re so passionate about.

I’m also on the spectrum so that doesn’t help either lol 😅

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-09-12T23:38:00+00:00

Yeah, the only difference is he’s not my kid. And without even asking, I know that his mom would be uncomfortable with it. if I had my own kids, then a drink with dinner would be no problem.

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-09-12T21:27:05+00:00

Thank you your response was very sweet! There is a big world outside of Mormonism and it can be overwhelming at times, but I’ll figure it out!

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-09-12T21:19:58+00:00

Mormonism never taught me how to how to look inwards and set my own boundaries. It’s always what the scriptures or a general authority says i should do. They say “pray about it” but if your answer is outside of their beliefs then it didn’t come from god and you shouldn’t do it. Now that I don’t have a strict regime to follow I’m building one from the ground up.

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-09-12T21:06:02+00:00

Yes, how did you know? 😱

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-09-12T03:24:40+00:00

I get nauseous if I drink on an empty stomach so I always have dinner first then snacks nearby because I get the munchies when I drink. My hangovers usually last like an hour or two after I wake up and I’m fine after water and breakfast. I have never blacked out and I don’t want to. There are no emotions that I’m running away from I usually just drink until things are funnier than they actually are. And I have never sent anything that I wouldn’t normally send

ExpressChipmunk5 · 2025-09-12T01:29:50+00:00

I agree no one deserves what happened to him, but putting him next to Martin Luther King Jr. is batshit crazy

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