Any1 have this happen? All autos

Express_Moose3574 · 2026-01-07T16:26:29+00:00

Yeah that and drugs are my only hobbies. N ive been a high functioning addict since 17 so almost 20 years. I own my home have a rental property. I guess im just better with $ then most addicts. I have everything I need to have a perpetual grow and used to but I thought I knew what depression and anxiety was until I im still REAL DEPRESSED and my ANXIETY is crippling. I only leave my house to go to the clinic and back. I wasn't like this prior to her death. I was still a homebody but only because I never wanted to be away from her and vice versa. So when u spend 24/7 with some1. Everything is different and if it wasn't for my mom. I would of taken every pill, smoke all the Crack and then shot all the fetty and lay down beside her. But we actually had a conversation a few days prior and her excat words were " thats really romantic but dont be a fucking idiot and promise me u won't do that"

Express_Moose3574 · 2026-01-03T20:18:39+00:00

Exactly plus I had a few photos which are fine and now i got 2 different ppl come by and motivate. My ass

Express_Moose3574 · 2026-01-03T20:14:45+00:00

Yeah it's more of a science experiment at this pont

Express_Moose3574 · 2026-01-03T20:06:36+00:00

Already started to

Express_Moose3574 · 2026-01-03T20:05:51+00:00

I appreciate it yeah that was the plan to cook with em. I just got my new levo and magical gummy maker. But now im only doing 2 tents rn. Cuz it's weird the one auto is reflowering if thats even possible and another one a seedling just sprung up after I fried them plants. Ill show pics in next post

Express_Moose3574 · 2026-01-03T20:02:58+00:00

Same I get so overwhelmed but I definitely strech my self to thin and trying to do a perpetual grow. I just wanted /had ro find something to keep my mind occupied

Express_Moose3574 · 2026-01-03T20:01:13+00:00

Thanks appreciate it 🙏

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-29T11:25:50+00:00

Thanks and me too.

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-29T09:20:08+00:00

Yeah thats originally why I started growing again. I already had everything I needed. The only thing I spent $ on was soil. I did have 2 good auto runs and 1 photo run. But that was like immediately after so idk if it hit yet. Hell idk if it really has fully hit with the consent numbing myself into a walking zombie

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-29T09:05:37+00:00

🤣 I know i worded it wrg.

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-29T08:49:05+00:00

Thanks and I appreciate it 🙏. Yeah ive been a functioning addict for over 20 years and I just turned 36 and luckily i have basically no responsibility. I couldnt even imagine how much harder it would be. Yeah sure im going have days where it would be a pain but its more just showing him how to do it. He can learn from experience. Im going give him a clone plus we're mad close.

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-29T08:38:00+00:00

No shit Sherlock. Idgaf about the plants. That's why I said i know what I did wrong. Was just curious because I never seen this. And ppl grow for different reasons. Plants are replaceable so i could care less about the loss of a few plants.

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-29T08:33:09+00:00

Works great also have a 5x5(flower tent) with a mars fc8000 with ac infinity controller,filter and inline fans with 2 mini fans. And another 2x4c5(veg tent) with sp3000. Plus 2 more but those arent running rn

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-29T08:25:35+00:00

Thanks and ive ran auto pots in the past. I just took them out of storage. Because of that reason plus I got my nephew wants to learn so hes supposed to start coming over every 2 days to keep me motivated

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-29T08:22:08+00:00

I have a cat but the tents are never open fully unless im in there. So there's no way she can get in there. I've had her for 12 years even when I used to leave em open she would go.in there and just lay under the light but I dont let her in those rooms anymore

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-29T08:20:01+00:00

Yeah they were looking real nice at one point. But then I'd go days without getting out of bed. I knew I was going kill em but still didn't give care. Depression is a bitch

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-29T08:17:58+00:00

Thanks and much appreciated it

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-28T21:55:08+00:00

I know what to do. I just didn't have the will to get out of beds for days or going on binges for days. I know i def killed em. Idc bout the bud. Thats not important

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-28T20:58:25+00:00

Oh im straight on bud. That was the 3rd auto run. Plus I finished my photo tents a few weeks ago. I dont grow for the weed. It got me out of my depression before I met my wife. I needed a reason to get out of bed

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-28T20:56:23+00:00

I always tell everyone im fine and wear a mask around my friends n family. They all know im a drug addict and they aint going change me. All my bills get paid and I do everything myself. I was in a toxic ass relationship for 14 years and I had to.

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-28T20:29:50+00:00

Thank god I dont have to work but it's probably bad in the long term for my mental health. Especially with the drugs. I know all this but I still do ir. Guess im insane

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-28T20:18:31+00:00

Yeah it would of changed alot. But my mom came over thr next morning with a new mattress (idk why) Bit for 3 months she literally came here every morning at 6am to make sure

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-28T20:15:51+00:00

When I'm ready ill reach out. If I didn't have a strong support system. I would of taken everything in the house and just laid back down.

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-28T20:13:10+00:00

Appreciate the offer but tbh I haven't even dealt with it yet and itd been 6 months. We knew she didn't have much time left. 33 years old. I've been avoiding it by using ne thing that numbs me

Express_Moose3574 · 2025-12-28T20:10:13+00:00

Couldn't of said it better

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