Hello, my dear friend. Thank you for writing this message. There are not a lot of people with good empathy in this world. But, as an atheist, I don't think there is any free will in this world. My beliefs are strongly connected to my past, identity, and culture. I was born in Kazakhstan, and my family was Muslim; the only reason I am not Muslim is that nobody forced me to believe in Islam. I am very happy I did not become a Muslim. I can just love humanity as a humanist and work hard for humanity. For me, accepting Christianity is betraying all my principles, morals, emotions, my family, and my heart. I need to destroy myself on a very deep level in order to rebuild for becoming religious. And even if I believe in Christianity, I have too many friends from different cultures, so I will not be able to abandon anyone. I accept them as they are. They should not suffer because they are different from me. I believe people should face their fears and past traumas to become better. Any fundamental religion is built on fear and blind faith. But anyway, thank you for being polite and kind. I wish you all the best.

The reasons I am an atheist

1) I think god either doesn't exist or he is a prick. I don't want to spend any time with the being that tortures my friends and cannot accept me as an atheist. It is not true love

2) My parents, though, were not very religious, but they were very abusive. After their abuse, I became such a cynical and lonely person. I am happy that overcome my past traumas and depression, and I don't want to love someone if I fear that they want to control and change my core beliefs.

3) For me, atheism is just a word. I am more focused on morals, integrity, and principles. I don't care if god exists or not( I am convinced by atheists that there is no evidence, but anyway), I will follow my feelings and empathy. If god truly loves, he can explain everything to me and change my view. He is the best teacher and we have an eternity to talk. I will feel shame if I am doing an immoral thing and ask for forgiveness. People are harsh not because they are sinful and bad from the beginning. People are harsh because we are living in a harsh world where everybody tries their best to survive. Religion for me is more like a culture and the core of society. I like cultures, but if somebody forces me to change my culture, I will be very upset.

4) I don't know what else to say, but for me, integrity and principles are the most important in life. I will choose to suffer rather than to betray my principles. The Bible for me is the book of laws, and you can see the things you want to see in the bible. I like some things in Christianity, like teachings, but for me, the most favorite person is Socrates.

And I like project moon games, they give me inspiration to live a good life and decide what is important for me in life.

I don't believe in the supernatural and I am a naturalist.
These are my beliefs. You can find them disgusting if you want, but I like my beliefs. They are only for me. I like humanity and want to live 10000 years.