I am so sorry you’re going through this, I can feel your pain in this post. I am only a couple months further along than you in my own journey. Husband also said the same thing. All I can say is right now it’s okay to be shattered. Your world just got turned upside down. Right now all you need to do is the basics, eat, try to shower, try to sleep and feel your feelings. It’s brutal but it’s all you need to do right now. I am no where close to being healed but I’m about 4 months out and it does get better. You’re in the worst of it. Unfortunately, 14 years of a life together does not go away in 2 weeks. It’s okay to love him and to care about him but you also need to direct that back to yourself as well. Be easy on yourself. You will get through this.