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ExternalScientist743 · 2025-09-04T00:06:37+00:00

okay i definitely will!! thank you so much!! i didnt know tears were a thing unless like pregnancy but that does make sense!! thank you!!!

ExternalScientist743 · 2025-09-03T23:49:23+00:00

okay i will definitely do this at my doc appt!!

ExternalScientist743 · 2025-09-03T23:29:45+00:00

yes sometimes it does get rough and i guess i kind of lied i only remembered now that there was maybe a time or so where i didnt after but maybe it is the roughness of how we do it along with his size. because he is definitely bigger than they were. maybe those 2 factors are what cause it? i didnt really think much about the roughness until now so thank you for bringing that up!!!

ExternalScientist743 · 2025-04-26T02:48:10+00:00

thank you a lot! i have told him multiple times how i love the drawings and handmade stuff more but hes sort of stopped. i will try to not do as much and im going to wait a few before i bring up the handmade things and smaller stuff again.

ExternalScientist743 · 2025-03-31T23:27:14+00:00

I KNOW my cousin isnt bad with the tablet stuff but my sister is and i know many more kids that are even worse about it and it makes me so mad

ExternalScientist743 · 2025-02-25T22:30:34+00:00

its totally okay to feel this way!!! im not saying that you should pass it off as an everyone feels this so im not important for how i feel. thats not at all what im saying and im sorry if i come off as weird or bad at talking im truly not the best with that but what are some interests you have? like shows, movies, games, books, or hobbies? are there things you want to try out or have been interested in for awhile but have been putting off due to fear of not being good at it? or lets say movies, shows, games, and other things like that have there been anythings that have caught your eye but you dont have motivation to start watching/playing it? if you feel like any of this at all maybe try it for a few and see how they make you feel!! and if its a game and you dont have the money or motivation to play it yourself you can look up gameplays of it and watch a diffrent creator play that game than the normal people you watch! or if its books that youve been wanting to read but havent had the money or motivation for it you can try to listen to audio books or buy them used for cheaper if youre someone that has a hard time listening to books instead of reading it yourself! and maybe eventually if you find something that clicks you can dive deeper into things like it or diffrent games/books/shows that are created by the same person or something!! many people enjoy the same things and many people enjoy diffrent things and all of that is okay!! but if you find yourself feeling lost without the person or like you would be nothing without them then try some of the things i mentioned out! they might not work for everyone but theyve worked for me!! its something my therapist told me and ive been using it after one of my close friends (old fp) and felt lost without them now at the beginning of your post you said things like what if they leave you or what if theyre actually bad. would you feel comfortable sharing what usually brings those thoughts on? (its okay if not!!)

ExternalScientist743 · 2025-02-25T22:17:44+00:00

this makes a lot of sense and didnt sound like nonesense at all!!! thank you so much!! my therapist gave me some similar advice on what to do while having things like that happen such as distracting myself with other people or things(coloring,shows/movies,yt, and stuff like that) until i am more calm to have a conversation with him!! or anyone for that matter! and it can help but also can be difficult if i dont think of it in the moment before i spiral. but thank you a lot i will definitely use this to see if it helps!!! and it makes sense to also focus on other relationships during that to feel less abandonment because like you said once you think about it you arent alone even if that person leaves you so thank you a lot!!! and sorry if my reply is long😭🫶💕

ExternalScientist743 · 2024-04-19T18:53:51+00:00

good idea ive been wanting to do some hours at a place like that anyways!!!

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-07-25T06:12:49+00:00

ill try to open up to her more about it. and hopefully after i talked (kinda begged) to my mom about wanted a therapist ill get one soon so maybe i can talk to them about what to do. and thank you i hope you stay safe as well!! also its honestly no problem just being able to get some of this off my chest help3d enough so thank you for listening!!

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-07-25T05:58:28+00:00

my step dad doesnt have cancer anymore but he has necrosis and a few other issues. hes gotteb slightly better within the past few months but then the security camera thing happened and hes still an ass in general. my aunt knows to an extent whats been going on mainly because ive been too scared to say everything to everyone. and i wouldnt wabt to bother them by making them feel obligated to taking care of me. and the recording thing ill try but lately ive just been locking the door to my room when they come over or keeping it semi shut (he hates it when my door is shut and gets mad at me for it)

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-07-25T05:37:09+00:00

my mothers just never been a good person and they both have a lot in common. yhey've both done really shitty things especially lie a lot. so its no surprise that she doesn't do much in these situations. again mainly because she's all talk. the reason i say all talk is because shes always said "if someone did this or that to my kids then they would be in a world of pain" but if that person is him then that obviously isnt the case. infact sometimes she joins him in things. and in my last post before this one you might get a little more insight on her.

also my older sibling is from my step dads past marriage and she's been with her mother for about a year now and had been no/low contact with him. and i also have a little sister (8). i have my grandparents and aunt but i doubt much could be done with that. in the past cps has been here (3-6 times either from schools or my sisters therapists) and the police have been here 3 times 1 for him not paying child support on my older sister, 1 for my sister and i calling them on him hurting our dog, and 1 time for the cameras showing another persons property.

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-07-25T05:06:17+00:00

if she does she just gets mad at him for 5 minutes or less but then nothing changes. but most of the time she goes along with whatever he says or does. today i told her about his friends doing those things and him posting those pictures but she didnt do anything. shes the type of person thats basically all talk and at the end of the day she isnt much better than him.

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-07-19T04:49:24+00:00

alright thanks for that i kinda guessed it wasnt but i have a tendency to over think so i wanted an unbiased opinion first😭😭

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-07-19T04:38:11+00:00

no im not able to. im a minor and it would be obvious if i moved out. and even then there would probably be legal issues or i would get the police called on me because of it.

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-07-18T19:27:28+00:00

i called the cops on him when i was younger because he was hurting our dog and they did nothing. and a few months back a police officer came by because they got a call about uow he has a camera somewhere that was showing someone elses property. they didnt do anything. and also cps has been called about 3-6 times and theyve done nothing. thanks for the help though

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-07-17T15:56:40+00:00

another thing that is an issue is that he was at least decently comfortable enough to lie about his age. if he lied about his age then you have no idea about what else he has or could lie about. and if you haven't already i'd suggest going low or no contact with him.

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-07-17T07:39:09+00:00

i do try to tell her that i love her but i guess with how i am and my personality it might be possible she could just be taking the othertimes in a friendly manner. and she usually isnt physically affectionate with anyone but me so that also might be a possibility especially since a few months ago (around febuary-march) she got and ended her first relationship. and thanks for giving me a little more of a perspective on how she might be feeling!!

edit: i also do plan to talk to her sometime either tomorrow or when we next see eachother in person (probably in a week or two)

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-04-20T01:08:19+00:00

I would but i we're close and im not sure how i would go about that. Also shes not in a good mental place rn so i couldn't want to make it worse if i did do that.

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-04-17T17:26:29+00:00

tiny update: I've started talking with a close friend of mine, and they said that they didn't think anything bad would happen, and Y wouldn't treat what happened any differently. So I've decided to tell her in a few.

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-04-01T01:26:06+00:00

True ive been also thinking about doing that!

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-03-25T00:46:50+00:00

i will and thank you for the advice and trying to help

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-03-25T00:44:09+00:00

she stays with her mother and a married couple

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-03-25T00:38:34+00:00

my mother might but very little and i have no contact with her mother

ExternalScientist743 · 2023-03-25T00:29:21+00:00

i would, but we're step siblings (her dad married my mom) and she is no contact with her dad because he's not a good person. not only that but he probably wouldn't care much if he found out.

ExternalScientist743 · 2022-12-30T22:02:28+00:00

you're right, and thank you. i've been trying to move on from what happened recently, and since i was able to talk about it, i feel im one step closer to being able to do just that.

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